crazy dayz
I was so excited at the thought of summer, but now that it has started i don't think i like it much. I find myself missing my friends from college and fighting with my fiance. I love him very much but he is a major ass sometimes.
The one thing i find myself looking forward to is learning how to drive. My fiance is teaching me how and he is being very rough with me and i don't think it is helping our relationship any. i wish my best friend Maekala was here because she could give me some friendly advice. My other problem is that i just feel that i'm totally undesirable and unappealing to anyone even my fiance.
Why is it when guys look at other girls they have to feel compelled to tell the girl that they are with? I mean am i not a desirable as she or am i not as attractive? do you not want me? i hate feeling this way, what did i do to become so bitter about myself and seeking refuge inside this journal of strangers?