So life's kinda sucky right now...
Jess' grandmother just passed away, and unfortunately I couldn't wait until he came home. The funeral will be on Wednesday, and he will be a pallbearer. Its been a long time coming, and thankfully she passed away in her sleep.
I'm also kinda upset because I got the results from my sleep lab. I get to go back for the CPAP portion. This means I have sleep apnea (aka I stop breating during sleep).
Now, I'm sure some of you are wondering why I would be upset about that. Well, its treatable, with a machine that will look like i have an alien attached to my face! Poor Jess, and poor Haley are prolly gonna be weirded out about it.
I'd say the main thing that makes me sad is that I have felt tired my entire life, and to know its because of a sleeping disorder I've most likely had all this time and could have at least contributed to my depression, and could have been treated.... BAH! Ever since I was a kid, I remember going to my parents crying because I was soo tired, and couldn't sleep or stay asleep.
I just have to remind myself that once I start treatment, I'll finally get a good night sleep. And maybe, just maybe start feeling good naturally enough that I can lower or stop taking antidepressants.
So now I get to spend another night in the sleep lab, this time with more gizmos attached so they can help figure out how I can be treated with a machine, etc
Yipee!