ST-E-RESSSSSED.
how come it seems that shitty things all happen at once? like you'll have a few months where everything goes awesome, and then in one week everything just comes crashing down and 2345908 things go wrong... or is that just how things seem to happen to me?
so in 2001 my grandfather had cancer in his throat... he only smoked cigars back in the day, but he worked in the steel factories. he had a 49/51 chance of surviving and he did! he had radiation... but the radiation made it so that he no longer had any salvia or taste, which meant he couldnt eat many solid foods and had to drink those ensure drinks for the rest of his lives. but he beat it! and they say that after 5 years if there are no signs of the cancer coming back, you can say that you are cured!!
so now it's 2006, and he went for his last x-ray, and he was pretty confident that he had beaten it! but now, two months later, they said that the x-ray showed that he now has lesions on his lungs. i think thats so sad! i mean, how must it feel to think that you have beaten cancer, and to have lived the past five years drinking milkshakes, having no saliva and no taste... and then they tell you that its back. it makes me so sad. and for lung cancer you can't go to radiation, you have to go to chemotherapy (i dont know if i spelled that right). but if you were 77 years old, would you want to go through chemo?..... i dont know.
to add to that, my job is so stressful. it's my first time being a boss.. and i have 10 staff that i have to train everyday from 9-5 by myself. I hvae to think of topics and ideas and lessons.. and its just so stressful!! on tuesday i forgot all of my lesson plans at home, so when i got there i just had to try and remember what i had planned, and yesterday i planned an hour and a half with a guest speaker... and then 5 minutes before we were about to begin they told me that their car broke down and couldnt make it! i almost had a heartattack.. what was i going to do with my staff for 1.5 hours to fill in that void?
i just feel like nothing is going my way latley. it seems to always happen to me like this... i'll feel pretty happy, and then i'll go through 2 week period where EVERYTHING goes wrong, and i can pretty much come up with a list of 25 things. i'd rather have my bad luck spread out then having it all happen at once.
grrrrrrr.
so in 2001 my grandfather had cancer in his throat... he only smoked cigars back in the day, but he worked in the steel factories. he had a 49/51 chance of surviving and he did! he had radiation... but the radiation made it so that he no longer had any salvia or taste, which meant he couldnt eat many solid foods and had to drink those ensure drinks for the rest of his lives. but he beat it! and they say that after 5 years if there are no signs of the cancer coming back, you can say that you are cured!!
so now it's 2006, and he went for his last x-ray, and he was pretty confident that he had beaten it! but now, two months later, they said that the x-ray showed that he now has lesions on his lungs. i think thats so sad! i mean, how must it feel to think that you have beaten cancer, and to have lived the past five years drinking milkshakes, having no saliva and no taste... and then they tell you that its back. it makes me so sad. and for lung cancer you can't go to radiation, you have to go to chemotherapy (i dont know if i spelled that right). but if you were 77 years old, would you want to go through chemo?..... i dont know.
to add to that, my job is so stressful. it's my first time being a boss.. and i have 10 staff that i have to train everyday from 9-5 by myself. I hvae to think of topics and ideas and lessons.. and its just so stressful!! on tuesday i forgot all of my lesson plans at home, so when i got there i just had to try and remember what i had planned, and yesterday i planned an hour and a half with a guest speaker... and then 5 minutes before we were about to begin they told me that their car broke down and couldnt make it! i almost had a heartattack.. what was i going to do with my staff for 1.5 hours to fill in that void?
i just feel like nothing is going my way latley. it seems to always happen to me like this... i'll feel pretty happy, and then i'll go through 2 week period where EVERYTHING goes wrong, and i can pretty much come up with a list of 25 things. i'd rather have my bad luck spread out then having it all happen at once.
grrrrrrr.