almost done with the first semester!
that thought scares me...this year has gone by sooo fast. i don't think i've ever been so busy or had as much fun. but i still feel like there's so much i need to do before i can go on to grad school, and i don't want to leave anyone here. i can't believe some people are going to be gone next year. and i realized i don't handle stress well. thanks to kelli's tutoring, i swear like a sailor now, especially when i'm stressed. son of a b! haha. but i love her.
and i get lonely a lot. i thought i was okay with being alone, and it's fine when i'm busy all day, just at night i actually stop and think and it's sad that i've never had anyone to really care about or that really cares about me. haha and i don't mean friends, because i have amazing friends and family. i get sad thinking that i don't really have anyone to compare good relationships to, if you can follow what i mean. the only relationship i had was not the most healthy thing in the world, and he doesn't even care about me. i wish i had at least something really good to think back on and be like well, at least i had love. not that he's not a great person or anything, but he didn't love me.
oh well, i'm just not invited to the party, as dane said. :) i love that i take life lessons from dane cook. it's my favorite thing ever. that and kelli's "it," and my late night sessions with andrea.
oh and anyone who is deciding what to get me for a christmas present, it's a certain football player wrapped up in a big red bow. that'd be great, thanks.
and i get lonely a lot. i thought i was okay with being alone, and it's fine when i'm busy all day, just at night i actually stop and think and it's sad that i've never had anyone to really care about or that really cares about me. haha and i don't mean friends, because i have amazing friends and family. i get sad thinking that i don't really have anyone to compare good relationships to, if you can follow what i mean. the only relationship i had was not the most healthy thing in the world, and he doesn't even care about me. i wish i had at least something really good to think back on and be like well, at least i had love. not that he's not a great person or anything, but he didn't love me.
oh well, i'm just not invited to the party, as dane said. :) i love that i take life lessons from dane cook. it's my favorite thing ever. that and kelli's "it," and my late night sessions with andrea.
oh and anyone who is deciding what to get me for a christmas present, it's a certain football player wrapped up in a big red bow. that'd be great, thanks.