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today was no good. work sucked. my dad surprised me with a business dinner. no parking. angry boyfriend. fuck.
i miss him. hes gone and friends are with him. hes getting drunk and im sure they are trying to talk him out of me. i am not liked. i try to tell myself that we are stronger than that. i pretend that we are above the influence of friends. its been really rocky lately. we have been fighting a lot. i just hope he isnt ready to give up. he said he never would, but for me thats hard to believe. i just hope he doesnt get distracted but its really too late for that. he called me twice in twenty four hours and when you are one thousand miles away, that just isnt enough.
please let me be enough.
i miss him. hes gone and friends are with him. hes getting drunk and im sure they are trying to talk him out of me. i am not liked. i try to tell myself that we are stronger than that. i pretend that we are above the influence of friends. its been really rocky lately. we have been fighting a lot. i just hope he isnt ready to give up. he said he never would, but for me thats hard to believe. i just hope he doesnt get distracted but its really too late for that. he called me twice in twenty four hours and when you are one thousand miles away, that just isnt enough.
please let me be enough.