Just Say It!
So I was thinking yesterday that I really need to work on just saying what I want when I want to. What I mean is I will have something I will want to say but then analyze it 10 different times and by the time I get around to it the subject has totally changed or I convinced myself not to say it. I always worry about what what people are going to think about what I have to say. Do I sound dumb, silly, or an immense amount of other things depending on the situation. The only people who really ge that reaction from me are people I know for years or I am currently not attracted to. So in all essence this is a skill I will have to work on for the people that I want relationship wise. I think that was the downfall of at least one of my relationships (I haven't had very many ok). I would call him but he would do all the talking because I just wouldn't speak up. Most of the time I thought I was going to sound stupid so I just let him keep talking. He really didn't get to hear much from me. But along with that I need to learn to not be to blunt. I think to learning this will take a lot goof ups when it comes to understanding each person around and what they do and do not like. Or should I not care at all what people think and just go about saying what I want? I don't think that is the case. I don't think I will ever get completely rid of my accommodating side. I guess this will be something I have to work on for long while.