Throwing out the apple.
This is striking me now-
Our lives are governed by fear, our strongest fears. Our lives are riddled with holes, holes created by all the horrible, stupid, incomprehensible things we do because we're scared. Scared of losing something good. Scared of having something good to lose in the first place. Scared of starting something good in case it won't be perfect. Scared of being alone. Scared of giving up our alone time. Scared of not being good enough. Scared of being too goody-goody.
And it's so hard for us to give up these fears because we all think that we're merely being cautious, or smart, or protecting ourselves or someone else. But all we're doing is creating huge, gaping holes in our lives that would otherwise be filled with some great good thing, accompanied by all the nasty, surprising, hard, upsetting bits that always tag along behind the good stuff. But it is like throwing out the apple for fear of the pits. We're so terrified of something going wrong that everything we do instead is wrong, wrong, wrong. And unless we see this fear eating away and purge our life of it, gradually there will be more emptiness than fullness. And that's what should scare us the most.
Our lives are governed by fear, our strongest fears. Our lives are riddled with holes, holes created by all the horrible, stupid, incomprehensible things we do because we're scared. Scared of losing something good. Scared of having something good to lose in the first place. Scared of starting something good in case it won't be perfect. Scared of being alone. Scared of giving up our alone time. Scared of not being good enough. Scared of being too goody-goody.
And it's so hard for us to give up these fears because we all think that we're merely being cautious, or smart, or protecting ourselves or someone else. But all we're doing is creating huge, gaping holes in our lives that would otherwise be filled with some great good thing, accompanied by all the nasty, surprising, hard, upsetting bits that always tag along behind the good stuff. But it is like throwing out the apple for fear of the pits. We're so terrified of something going wrong that everything we do instead is wrong, wrong, wrong. And unless we see this fear eating away and purge our life of it, gradually there will be more emptiness than fullness. And that's what should scare us the most.