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I am so messed up! I know why or at least christina tells me why but don't know how to fix it. Today took two quizes for my EX class that I missed and hopefully did well enough to pass that class. Went to work tired as hell, thought i was going to fall asleep on the counter. I talked to bella, and she is supposed to be in toledo this weekend!! Yah Yah. I came home from work and turned on the OC and fell asleep until almost 2am. My mom called me a zillion times and i never heard my phone ring. I woke up to Brent Barkett calling me from the ale house tonight. Wow, I can' believe he called me. I defidently sounded like a jack ass because i just woke-up. Then heather IM me and asked for my cell number. Why? then she was like lets go to stake n shake, and i was so hungary and what the hell I can be the better person. I went and it was fine, just small talk hows your life kinda stuff. Then she did some reading and i called christina back. We talked for a long time and I am so greatful for her. I really needed someone to get into my head and be like don't be a dumb fuck here are your options. She makes me feel much better about myself. I love how she knows how I work and what to do to get me to reality. I value how she tells me everything straight up always no matter if its going to hurt my feelings or not.
I come away from the phone call with so much more drive and motivation or maybe we should call it direction of how to handel my life and myself. now how do i explain to my mom that i need to drop the money to fly out to seattle to be with my friends and family their without offending them. I want to be there for x-mas so bad, but i should be here with the kids too. So maybe it will be seattle after christmas through the new year. Family and friends are more important than buying a 4000 car right now. I think i am even going to plan a small trip to boardman and southern ohio.
Now its just time to get this damm school shit done. I really need that A in BMGT. Hopefully i can pull it off, thank you so much to my mom who has worked so hard to help me with this class. I defidently relie on her too much here.
Okay productive time or sleeping but i need to get to one of them
I come away from the phone call with so much more drive and motivation or maybe we should call it direction of how to handel my life and myself. now how do i explain to my mom that i need to drop the money to fly out to seattle to be with my friends and family their without offending them. I want to be there for x-mas so bad, but i should be here with the kids too. So maybe it will be seattle after christmas through the new year. Family and friends are more important than buying a 4000 car right now. I think i am even going to plan a small trip to boardman and southern ohio.
Now its just time to get this damm school shit done. I really need that A in BMGT. Hopefully i can pull it off, thank you so much to my mom who has worked so hard to help me with this class. I defidently relie on her too much here.
Okay productive time or sleeping but i need to get to one of them