we all have something that digs at us
I'm having a bit of a moment. Well, it's similar to moments I've had the past several weekends, which is when I have the most time to sit down and write. The long and the short of it is that I'm letting myself be intimidated.
I've been reading fanfic for a long time. I used to read X-Files back in college, then took a break for a while and got pulled back in via HP fandom in 2003 or thereabouts. I've made forays into LOTR slash and RPS, QAF slash and RPS, CSI slash, Doctor Who and Torchwood slash, and a few others minor things. My main fandom is HP, though. And I've read a LOT of it.
After reading so much of it, I wanted to try my hand at it. I wanted to develop characters, write a great plot that readers would love and I would be proud of, be that person posting a story on a comm. I wanted to establish the wonderful banter relationships I saw in comments between writers who glomp and tease each other. I have stories in my head, loads of them, and I know I'll need some practice and have to work at getting them down into good fics, but I want to write them.
I have only one acquaintance who I know for sure has read fanfic. We've talked about it a bit, and recently she told me that she still reads a bit but she's mad about the fates of Lupin and Tonks in Deathly Hallows, which I can understand. She also hasn't written anything, as far as I know. What I'm trying to say is that I don't have anyone in RL to talk about this stuff with, and I don't have any relationships established here yet to do so.
Basically, I'm afraid to put myself out there. I need some reassurance that sure, it's scary at first, but it's worth it. I'm scared to reveal too much about my personal life, but at the same time, I'd love to find some RL friends around these HP LJ parts.
If anyone out there who's friended me for whatever reason makes any sense of my ramblings above, and has some words of encouragement, I'd be much obliged.
I've been reading fanfic for a long time. I used to read X-Files back in college, then took a break for a while and got pulled back in via HP fandom in 2003 or thereabouts. I've made forays into LOTR slash and RPS, QAF slash and RPS, CSI slash, Doctor Who and Torchwood slash, and a few others minor things. My main fandom is HP, though. And I've read a LOT of it.
After reading so much of it, I wanted to try my hand at it. I wanted to develop characters, write a great plot that readers would love and I would be proud of, be that person posting a story on a comm. I wanted to establish the wonderful banter relationships I saw in comments between writers who glomp and tease each other. I have stories in my head, loads of them, and I know I'll need some practice and have to work at getting them down into good fics, but I want to write them.
I have only one acquaintance who I know for sure has read fanfic. We've talked about it a bit, and recently she told me that she still reads a bit but she's mad about the fates of Lupin and Tonks in Deathly Hallows, which I can understand. She also hasn't written anything, as far as I know. What I'm trying to say is that I don't have anyone in RL to talk about this stuff with, and I don't have any relationships established here yet to do so.
Basically, I'm afraid to put myself out there. I need some reassurance that sure, it's scary at first, but it's worth it. I'm scared to reveal too much about my personal life, but at the same time, I'd love to find some RL friends around these HP LJ parts.
If anyone out there who's friended me for whatever reason makes any sense of my ramblings above, and has some words of encouragement, I'd be much obliged.