I can't run anymore.
Right now I miss belgium more than ever.
Because at least I didn't get screamed at as soon as I woke up there. I want to be far away from here. I need to get out of this house. I can't stand living with them anymore, I hate this. All they ever do is pick out the bad things. I never get any encouragement for anything I do. If it doesn't benefit them then there's no point in doing it. I'm supposed to start working at the disabled riding school on Monday but my mum is now refusing to get me any of the stuff I need for it because it doesn't pay and it doesn't benefit her. But she doesn't realise that It's gonna help so many people. I don't care if it doesn't pay, I don't want money for doing it. It's a charity. It means so much to me and they don't even take it seriously, even though I'm willing to get up at 5am every morning to walk to the bloody stables if I have to. Apparantly I wont be commited to it. They'll see, they'll soon see how commited I am. My mum was lovely enough to tell Laura's mum that I will fail at school cause I'm not clever, I'm stupid. It's nice to see how encouraging she is. She's refusing to drive us to Winchburgh as well now. Which isn't fair because she should share the driving out with Abbi's mum. I'm so sorry Abbi, your mum is so enthusiastic about us doing this and mine isn't. I wish my mum showed an interest in the things I do, but she doesn't. She only focuses on the things she hates about me. She didn't even say she was proud of me for the mental health group, she didn't even ask about the movie or anything. She doesn't care because she doesn't believe in me. She doesn't encourage me, neither does my dad. I get encouragement from other people. I try not to let it bring me down because I don't want to believe that I'm a failure. I'll try my best to get things sorted out myself Abbi, but I'm really sorry about my parents. They don't believe in this and they don't take it seriously. I'm gonna stay at Jaclyn's tonight, thankyou so much hen. And I'm gonna ask my brother if I can stay at his for a while, cause I need to get away from here. I can't stand it.
That's all.
Anna.
xXx
Because at least I didn't get screamed at as soon as I woke up there. I want to be far away from here. I need to get out of this house. I can't stand living with them anymore, I hate this. All they ever do is pick out the bad things. I never get any encouragement for anything I do. If it doesn't benefit them then there's no point in doing it. I'm supposed to start working at the disabled riding school on Monday but my mum is now refusing to get me any of the stuff I need for it because it doesn't pay and it doesn't benefit her. But she doesn't realise that It's gonna help so many people. I don't care if it doesn't pay, I don't want money for doing it. It's a charity. It means so much to me and they don't even take it seriously, even though I'm willing to get up at 5am every morning to walk to the bloody stables if I have to. Apparantly I wont be commited to it. They'll see, they'll soon see how commited I am. My mum was lovely enough to tell Laura's mum that I will fail at school cause I'm not clever, I'm stupid. It's nice to see how encouraging she is. She's refusing to drive us to Winchburgh as well now. Which isn't fair because she should share the driving out with Abbi's mum. I'm so sorry Abbi, your mum is so enthusiastic about us doing this and mine isn't. I wish my mum showed an interest in the things I do, but she doesn't. She only focuses on the things she hates about me. She didn't even say she was proud of me for the mental health group, she didn't even ask about the movie or anything. She doesn't care because she doesn't believe in me. She doesn't encourage me, neither does my dad. I get encouragement from other people. I try not to let it bring me down because I don't want to believe that I'm a failure. I'll try my best to get things sorted out myself Abbi, but I'm really sorry about my parents. They don't believe in this and they don't take it seriously. I'm gonna stay at Jaclyn's tonight, thankyou so much hen. And I'm gonna ask my brother if I can stay at his for a while, cause I need to get away from here. I can't stand it.
That's all.
Anna.
xXx