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Tired. Really tired. Camp went really well, so proud of you girls, amazing job!
Leaving Sat. This whole vacation thing is so messed up...at least I have my Gracie Lou with me!
It's worse trying to forget it. If I can talk about it, and admit it, it shows I'm not running, I'm not afraid.
I'm not entirely proud of some of the things I've done, or almost done, to other people, to myself. There's alot you don't know about me, what I've done, what I've almost done. Don't assume things. I'm not always as happy as I seem, nor am I always as sad as I appear in most of these stupid journals.
People use pain and suffering to define reality. I want to use happiness.
I'm a mess of things right now...Yesterday was fun, shopping with Grace and my mum, bought a new shirt, a new cute jacket thing, and my homecoming dress (yes its early but oh well, I love it, its simple, but I feel magnificent in it, and thats all that matters) and we got sushi and it was great! Cleaned all day today, still so exhausted, DQ later with mum and then movie night. Tomorrow Gracie Lou, then leaving Sat morning.
Wanting to fly....being to scared to try....it bites.