Betrayal
Betrayal at its innermost core is a lie...out and out...plain and simple!
This friend I relied on for sanity and in my ONE AND ONLY time of emotional need I am deemed a whiner...and told that I don't matter and neither do my problems, when I have sat through COUNTLESS hours of listening to this person and caring and worrying about this person...I feel like...nevermind what I feel like...
I lost my friend when he got his boyfriend...not that I'm not happy for him, because I AM! (and i hope he knows that) it's just...something isn't right...somethings off...I don't know what it is...but something's changed and I think it has A LOT more meaning than just what is owed....
I am confused and hurt. I don't know why this is being done to me...but I don't want to seem to "whine" or as it was put to me, by what I like to call a "poser," "blah blah blah, whine, whine, cry, cry." We ALL, each and EVERY ONE OF US, have our moments of weakness and you were posing through mine when I helped you through yours, BUT thank you for kicking me when I was up, instead of still down, I guess I can give you that much maturity...but not much more.
This friend I relied on for sanity and in my ONE AND ONLY time of emotional need I am deemed a whiner...and told that I don't matter and neither do my problems, when I have sat through COUNTLESS hours of listening to this person and caring and worrying about this person...I feel like...nevermind what I feel like...
I lost my friend when he got his boyfriend...not that I'm not happy for him, because I AM! (and i hope he knows that) it's just...something isn't right...somethings off...I don't know what it is...but something's changed and I think it has A LOT more meaning than just what is owed....
I am confused and hurt. I don't know why this is being done to me...but I don't want to seem to "whine" or as it was put to me, by what I like to call a "poser," "blah blah blah, whine, whine, cry, cry." We ALL, each and EVERY ONE OF US, have our moments of weakness and you were posing through mine when I helped you through yours, BUT thank you for kicking me when I was up, instead of still down, I guess I can give you that much maturity...but not much more.