DEAR DIARY
Dear Diary,
Have you ever just sat there listening to music & for every song, you know something that has happened, or you would like to happen to you? Like a soundtrack to your entire life. & there's always one song that fits perfectly with that one person. & everytime you see them, the song starts playing, but only you can hear it. But you don't tell anyone else. You've just always wanted something that you keep to yourself and never tell anyone else. Like running down your street at 2 AM naked, just to feel free from everything, or being kissed by your crush in the backseat of your best friends car. Or feeling the arms of someone around you when no ones there, but you know that someone will always be there to comfort you, even when you're all alone. You just keep it to yourself so you still know you're alive & haven't faded away into a sea of all unfamiliar faces. Feeling completely lost & completely unaware. But for that moment in time when the song is playing, to you it seems like a lifetime. And you never want it to end, but it has to eventually. If it didn't, everyone would be stuck in 'their time'. No one would ever move on. And what a cray world that would be that we lived in.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever wanted to be in love? Then once you think you are it's over like that. & everyone makes a big scene to you about it telling you you were wrong? But no one else besides you knows your feelings about the situation. But you knowing is all that matters, right?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever just wanted to sleep & never wake up, or at least not for awhile? Because you just feel so much stress & you think too much? And sleeping is the only way that you can free yourself from everything. I love to sleep.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever stood in a crowd of people in the pouring rain with no one talking to you, but you love it because it's so peaceful and beautiful?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever gotten drunk & started to ball your eyes out for reasons you still don't know?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever felt such a great attachment to your favorite book? And you just know that it was written for you. And one day you will meet the author and fall into his arms and begin to cry, and he knows exactly why you are.
Dear Diary,
have you ever felt replaced & unloved?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever dated someone, then broke up? But eventually you realize you still have feelings for them. But you both know that it will probably never work out again. And everytime they begin to like someone you get completely jealous because you want them to care about you. And you just get scared that they will forget you, and they'll never think of you & instead they'll think of someone else. And you feel this way because you love them. But you want them to be happy. And you would die for them but they haveno idea. And every single person you meet you compare the two of them. But then you realize that no one could ever be as great or amazing as them. So why wouldn't it work out?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever felt sick to your stomach when you hear songs that remind you of someone you used to love? But the person isn't half as great as you make them out to be.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever sat in a bathroom with one of your friends because they're balling their eyes out? Even though you barely talk to them. No words are exchanged, only hugs. But then the first words out of her mouth are "I love you." Then you just hug them even more. And yet you hardly EVER talk to them. But you're there for them rather than the people she hangs out with everyday. They came into the bathroom AFTER the song was over. But you're there from the beginning to dry their tears.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever been so connected to something or someone and you get this feeling that you can't explain to anyone so all you do is cry? I think that crying is just so amazing & feels wonderful. It's like each tear is one feeling from inside of you. And when you can't cry anymore, you've gotten everything out of you.
Dear Diary,
Has anyone ever touched you & you get a chill all through your body? And you just feel so many unexplainable feelings. You just feel so moved.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever gotten high for the first time?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms? And those arms are the arms you care about more than anything. And you feel so loved, so safe, so immortal.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever wanted to die just to see people's reactions?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever called your best friend at 4 AM just to tell them you think you're crazy & for them to tell you that they love you? Then you realize that you actually aren't crazy.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever felt as fake as bulemia wieght loss?
Dear Diary,
Is sex something to enjoy, or something to love? Because you know there is a difference.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever felt as over exposed as Jenna Jamison?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever felt like an over statement as to what people say about you?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever felt as useless as being in love with someone that won't give you the time of day?
Have you ever just sat there listening to music & for every song, you know something that has happened, or you would like to happen to you? Like a soundtrack to your entire life. & there's always one song that fits perfectly with that one person. & everytime you see them, the song starts playing, but only you can hear it. But you don't tell anyone else. You've just always wanted something that you keep to yourself and never tell anyone else. Like running down your street at 2 AM naked, just to feel free from everything, or being kissed by your crush in the backseat of your best friends car. Or feeling the arms of someone around you when no ones there, but you know that someone will always be there to comfort you, even when you're all alone. You just keep it to yourself so you still know you're alive & haven't faded away into a sea of all unfamiliar faces. Feeling completely lost & completely unaware. But for that moment in time when the song is playing, to you it seems like a lifetime. And you never want it to end, but it has to eventually. If it didn't, everyone would be stuck in 'their time'. No one would ever move on. And what a cray world that would be that we lived in.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever wanted to be in love? Then once you think you are it's over like that. & everyone makes a big scene to you about it telling you you were wrong? But no one else besides you knows your feelings about the situation. But you knowing is all that matters, right?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever just wanted to sleep & never wake up, or at least not for awhile? Because you just feel so much stress & you think too much? And sleeping is the only way that you can free yourself from everything. I love to sleep.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever stood in a crowd of people in the pouring rain with no one talking to you, but you love it because it's so peaceful and beautiful?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever gotten drunk & started to ball your eyes out for reasons you still don't know?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever felt such a great attachment to your favorite book? And you just know that it was written for you. And one day you will meet the author and fall into his arms and begin to cry, and he knows exactly why you are.
Dear Diary,
have you ever felt replaced & unloved?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever dated someone, then broke up? But eventually you realize you still have feelings for them. But you both know that it will probably never work out again. And everytime they begin to like someone you get completely jealous because you want them to care about you. And you just get scared that they will forget you, and they'll never think of you & instead they'll think of someone else. And you feel this way because you love them. But you want them to be happy. And you would die for them but they haveno idea. And every single person you meet you compare the two of them. But then you realize that no one could ever be as great or amazing as them. So why wouldn't it work out?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever felt sick to your stomach when you hear songs that remind you of someone you used to love? But the person isn't half as great as you make them out to be.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever sat in a bathroom with one of your friends because they're balling their eyes out? Even though you barely talk to them. No words are exchanged, only hugs. But then the first words out of her mouth are "I love you." Then you just hug them even more. And yet you hardly EVER talk to them. But you're there for them rather than the people she hangs out with everyday. They came into the bathroom AFTER the song was over. But you're there from the beginning to dry their tears.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever been so connected to something or someone and you get this feeling that you can't explain to anyone so all you do is cry? I think that crying is just so amazing & feels wonderful. It's like each tear is one feeling from inside of you. And when you can't cry anymore, you've gotten everything out of you.
Dear Diary,
Has anyone ever touched you & you get a chill all through your body? And you just feel so many unexplainable feelings. You just feel so moved.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever gotten high for the first time?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms? And those arms are the arms you care about more than anything. And you feel so loved, so safe, so immortal.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever wanted to die just to see people's reactions?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever called your best friend at 4 AM just to tell them you think you're crazy & for them to tell you that they love you? Then you realize that you actually aren't crazy.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever felt as fake as bulemia wieght loss?
Dear Diary,
Is sex something to enjoy, or something to love? Because you know there is a difference.
Dear Diary,
Have you ever felt as over exposed as Jenna Jamison?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever felt like an over statement as to what people say about you?
Dear Diary,
Have you ever felt as useless as being in love with someone that won't give you the time of day?