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it's wednesday. in 9 days i'll be home. in 6 days i'll be done with school. what's in the gap you ask? i'm going hiking with my dad :-/ i can't decide if i'm excited or not. it'll be cool but i feel like it's weird timing. like both times i've moved somewhere i've had these weird trip in between. like italy in august, and now camping.
i don't want to pack my shit up. a. there's so damn much of it. b. i love my room, and everything about it, and i don't want to empty it, and when i do it means that the year is really over.
i don't know quite what to think. as i lay in bed i realize that there's only a handful more times that i get to sleep in it. my wonderful orange bed by the window. i groan because i don't have dsl at home. being online has become my life. in a good way. i can't look to the side or through the bathroom door and see my best friends anymore. i can't shower at 2 in the morning anymore for fear of waking up my parents. i can't girl talk with my friends til 5 in the morning anymore. we can't get mo bear's at midnight anymore. no more crazy dance parties, no more walking to chipotle in a torrential downpour for a free burrito, no more music on the way to class, no more seeing random bands start to play in random places around campus. but really, no more friends with your 24/7.
but then i sit back and realize that wow, i had an amazing freshman year. i'm not one of those people who hated it, wants to transfer, or went home every other weekend. i'm one of those who had a fantastic first year away from home, and i feel like i'm totally lucky to be one of those. i'm lucky because i got a best friend as a roommate and a potty mate, and other best friends that live so close to me. i'm lucky because i picked the right one. the right place for me. and most importantly i'm lucky, because i get to do this exact same thing next year. and i know it'll be better. my friends are even closer in proximity to me, i know the campus inside and out (almost), we know what we like and what we don't, and we'll know to cherish every moment next year, because, while i enjoyed every minute, i had no idea it would go so quickly.
we all say that we're gonna see eachother all the time over the summer. i want to so very badly, but i know that college students are pretty much the most unorganized group of people in the world, and i'm scared that it won't happen as much as we say it will. i was busy last summer and i pretty much only saw my 4 or 5 closest friends. and by the same token, summer will rush by, and before we know it, we'll be back here. i'm be here at my computer in the same spot, with the same friends around me, and it won't matter how much we saw eachother over the summer, we're here now, and it'll be amazing to be back.
i want to go home so badly. i miss glen ellyn streets, i miss driving to oby, i miss caribou like you'd never believe. i miss going to friend's houses, sitting on couches, playing with sophie, and being with my family who missed me so much over the whole year. so don't get me wrong, school has to end, and i'm glad it ends with me going home to what i haven't had for the last year. it's sad, but i've forgotton what that was. winter break seems like a couple days, spring break, maybe a day in my memory. we didn't quite get into the swing of things with all the holidays and people to fit in. i'm sure the first day we're all back together it'll be amazing, and i can't wait for that to happen. i always say that senior year and the summer after was the best year of my life, but i think i might extend it, indefinately. i'm so lucky that i get to boggle back and forth between two wonderful places and two sets of amazing people in my life.
life is good.
i don't want to pack my shit up. a. there's so damn much of it. b. i love my room, and everything about it, and i don't want to empty it, and when i do it means that the year is really over.
i don't know quite what to think. as i lay in bed i realize that there's only a handful more times that i get to sleep in it. my wonderful orange bed by the window. i groan because i don't have dsl at home. being online has become my life. in a good way. i can't look to the side or through the bathroom door and see my best friends anymore. i can't shower at 2 in the morning anymore for fear of waking up my parents. i can't girl talk with my friends til 5 in the morning anymore. we can't get mo bear's at midnight anymore. no more crazy dance parties, no more walking to chipotle in a torrential downpour for a free burrito, no more music on the way to class, no more seeing random bands start to play in random places around campus. but really, no more friends with your 24/7.
but then i sit back and realize that wow, i had an amazing freshman year. i'm not one of those people who hated it, wants to transfer, or went home every other weekend. i'm one of those who had a fantastic first year away from home, and i feel like i'm totally lucky to be one of those. i'm lucky because i got a best friend as a roommate and a potty mate, and other best friends that live so close to me. i'm lucky because i picked the right one. the right place for me. and most importantly i'm lucky, because i get to do this exact same thing next year. and i know it'll be better. my friends are even closer in proximity to me, i know the campus inside and out (almost), we know what we like and what we don't, and we'll know to cherish every moment next year, because, while i enjoyed every minute, i had no idea it would go so quickly.
we all say that we're gonna see eachother all the time over the summer. i want to so very badly, but i know that college students are pretty much the most unorganized group of people in the world, and i'm scared that it won't happen as much as we say it will. i was busy last summer and i pretty much only saw my 4 or 5 closest friends. and by the same token, summer will rush by, and before we know it, we'll be back here. i'm be here at my computer in the same spot, with the same friends around me, and it won't matter how much we saw eachother over the summer, we're here now, and it'll be amazing to be back.
i want to go home so badly. i miss glen ellyn streets, i miss driving to oby, i miss caribou like you'd never believe. i miss going to friend's houses, sitting on couches, playing with sophie, and being with my family who missed me so much over the whole year. so don't get me wrong, school has to end, and i'm glad it ends with me going home to what i haven't had for the last year. it's sad, but i've forgotton what that was. winter break seems like a couple days, spring break, maybe a day in my memory. we didn't quite get into the swing of things with all the holidays and people to fit in. i'm sure the first day we're all back together it'll be amazing, and i can't wait for that to happen. i always say that senior year and the summer after was the best year of my life, but i think i might extend it, indefinately. i'm so lucky that i get to boggle back and forth between two wonderful places and two sets of amazing people in my life.
life is good.