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So today is Mom's birthday so, Happy Birthday Mom!
We did the usual: wake, congratulate, made pancakes, and watched a movie. What movie you say? Why, it was D.E.B.S. (the 2004 version) of course. A great spy-flick, very Charlie's Angels -like.
Haha, no but seriously, it was very akward watching it as a family. I mean, the movie is not bad, in fact its pretty good for its genre (Stupid comedy, right?), well, its better than the -insert word here- Movie series (like Epic movie, etc, perhaps except Date Movie and I wouldnt say Date movie is the greatest piece of comedy out there, but it has Alyson Hannigan in it and thats pretty much a win!), but anyway, thats not why it was awkward, the thing is (and I guess I shouldve paid attention to my gut instinct as the movie started), it has a lesbian relationship as the main focus (Between Spy-girl Amy and the sexiest baddie, Lucy Diamond), and well, lets just say that Mom is not comfortable with gay people.
... Well, that's not true, she's had many good (male) gay friends, the only person she's uncomfortable with is me (and lesbians, maybe), my sexuality to be precise (bisexual, if you must know). She's still in denial of it. She gave me the typical "Where did I go wrong" speech when I first came out to her those many years ago (ha. 3 years ago.) and since then, she's been all "You cant be gay, I forbid it, its against everything I believe in", blahblah (to her, and I guess to many people "bisexual" means "lesbo" which is all fine and dandy). Right now, there's a unspoken agreement between her and I that we won't discuss it anymore at all (either that or she thinks I finally "saw reason" and "became straight again").
But anyway, I understand where she's coming from, I mean, finding out that the oldest of her daughters likes to kiss girls (and most likely is the only gay in the family), is shocking and hard to swallow yeah, but, c'mon woman! you don't have to be all childish about it.
It was frustrating, that in every scene of the movie when the two lady-friends were gonna kiss/kissed she kept making "Ewww!" noises like a six year old. God, I swear she kept glancing at me just to see my reaction (at first I was amused, then just plain pissed off, like seriously, WTF!).
She made the first half of the movie completely unbearable to watch with her. And then, when it was over, she started talking at the dog: "Don't go queer on me Tekila, you hear me? don't be a fag." (which felt that it was sorely directed at me). And, I mean, if thats her way of coping, its seriously messed up, she might not realize it, but instead of "convincing me" or "guilt-triping" me into "becoming straight", shes just hurting me, and disappointing me. I'd prefer it if shed just ignore it completely.
I guess I should be grateful that she's only being immature about it, it's not like shes beating me or anything. But really, Daddy was more accepting of it (I guess he doesnt care either way, as long as I stay away from boys), I mean, i expected more from her than this childrens play. Not that I expected her to accept it, but It's not like I go around kissing every girl I see on the street, I don't even talk about girls or crushes out of respect for her feelings. I turn away when we see gay coules, as well as when something on TV is so much as implying of the "deviant lifestyle" (in front of her anyway, she does not need to know about my... engagements outside of the family circle).
The point is, I try to repress myself as much as I can, all for her sake, and she comes at me with this crap. I thought we were human beings, mature women who can speak crearly and honestly with each other, without either of us turning into kids. I guess I was mistaken.
Ugh.
My only form of amusement is thinking about what Moms reaction would be if she knew that Xena and Gabrielle are more than just good friends, that unlike what I made her believe, the two witches in Buffy are in a relationship of the sapphic nature, and that Fried Green Tomatoes does actually have lesbians in it. Ha.
On another note, D.E.B.S. made me realize of the greatness that is Jordanna Brewster. She is really yummy.
EDIT: Oh, and I did the Calculus problem stated in the previous entry. It was relatively easy, now that I think about it.
We did the usual: wake, congratulate, made pancakes, and watched a movie. What movie you say? Why, it was D.E.B.S. (the 2004 version) of course. A great spy-flick, very Charlie's Angels -like.
Haha, no but seriously, it was very akward watching it as a family. I mean, the movie is not bad, in fact its pretty good for its genre (Stupid comedy, right?), well, its better than the -insert word here- Movie series (like Epic movie, etc, perhaps except Date Movie and I wouldnt say Date movie is the greatest piece of comedy out there, but it has Alyson Hannigan in it and thats pretty much a win!), but anyway, thats not why it was awkward, the thing is (and I guess I shouldve paid attention to my gut instinct as the movie started), it has a lesbian relationship as the main focus (Between Spy-girl Amy and the sexiest baddie, Lucy Diamond), and well, lets just say that Mom is not comfortable with gay people.
... Well, that's not true, she's had many good (male) gay friends, the only person she's uncomfortable with is me (and lesbians, maybe), my sexuality to be precise (bisexual, if you must know). She's still in denial of it. She gave me the typical "Where did I go wrong" speech when I first came out to her those many years ago (ha. 3 years ago.) and since then, she's been all "You cant be gay, I forbid it, its against everything I believe in", blahblah (to her, and I guess to many people "bisexual" means "lesbo" which is all fine and dandy). Right now, there's a unspoken agreement between her and I that we won't discuss it anymore at all (either that or she thinks I finally "saw reason" and "became straight again").
But anyway, I understand where she's coming from, I mean, finding out that the oldest of her daughters likes to kiss girls (and most likely is the only gay in the family), is shocking and hard to swallow yeah, but, c'mon woman! you don't have to be all childish about it.
It was frustrating, that in every scene of the movie when the two lady-friends were gonna kiss/kissed she kept making "Ewww!" noises like a six year old. God, I swear she kept glancing at me just to see my reaction (at first I was amused, then just plain pissed off, like seriously, WTF!).
She made the first half of the movie completely unbearable to watch with her. And then, when it was over, she started talking at the dog: "Don't go queer on me Tekila, you hear me? don't be a fag." (which felt that it was sorely directed at me). And, I mean, if thats her way of coping, its seriously messed up, she might not realize it, but instead of "convincing me" or "guilt-triping" me into "becoming straight", shes just hurting me, and disappointing me. I'd prefer it if shed just ignore it completely.
I guess I should be grateful that she's only being immature about it, it's not like shes beating me or anything. But really, Daddy was more accepting of it (I guess he doesnt care either way, as long as I stay away from boys), I mean, i expected more from her than this childrens play. Not that I expected her to accept it, but It's not like I go around kissing every girl I see on the street, I don't even talk about girls or crushes out of respect for her feelings. I turn away when we see gay coules, as well as when something on TV is so much as implying of the "deviant lifestyle" (in front of her anyway, she does not need to know about my... engagements outside of the family circle).
The point is, I try to repress myself as much as I can, all for her sake, and she comes at me with this crap. I thought we were human beings, mature women who can speak crearly and honestly with each other, without either of us turning into kids. I guess I was mistaken.
Ugh.
My only form of amusement is thinking about what Moms reaction would be if she knew that Xena and Gabrielle are more than just good friends, that unlike what I made her believe, the two witches in Buffy are in a relationship of the sapphic nature, and that Fried Green Tomatoes does actually have lesbians in it. Ha.
On another note, D.E.B.S. made me realize of the greatness that is Jordanna Brewster. She is really yummy.
EDIT: Oh, and I did the Calculus problem stated in the previous entry. It was relatively easy, now that I think about it.