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I have been training twice a week at the gym by running for two hours and cycling for one hour. I burn more calories than I eat, and when I think about this fact it makes my heart b-b-beat a few skips faster. I'm losing weight and the thought of this makes me feel so warm and comforted. I understand now that when I am my goal weight, I will be physically attractive to a different type of person who will treat me well and not as a sexual possession, nor oppress me. Plus I will be mentally attractive, for having pushed myself so hard in order to be considered desirable by perhaps people who read books, discuss politics, speak languages and won't cheat on me. This is such a lovely thought that I use to fall back on when I am weakest.
I had my first diet-induced hallucination on Sunday. I was facing up the chiller at work, dragging all the frozen meals from the back to the front when I literally jumped back and landed on my ass (luckily it cushioned my fall, lol) because I saw the entire contents from the meat section come forward like it was about to fall on top of me.
Fransisco is an adorable Spanish actor who has come to England to learn English from scratch. I speak to him in Spanish and tutor him in English as best as I can. He was able to say "thank you so much for absolutely everything" before he left, though I heard from some of the duty managers that he'll be fired soon. Why? Because he's not so good at English. WHAT? He understands if you make an effort, and he's the hardest working cleaner we have ever had at that store. When he was vacuuming some horrid brats were running around him. "Odio ninos!"
1. Safety Dance - Men Without Hats (hahaha)
2. Rock Me Amadeus - Falco (R.I.P)
3. Idioteque - Radiohead
4. Whenever, Wherever (whatever) - Shakira
5. Not With You - Tegan And Sara
6. Shameless - Ani Difranco (lovvve)
7. I Don't Care! - Ricky Martin (I know!!)
8. The Ashtray Girl - Placebo
9. Toxic - Britney Spears (SORRY)
10. Subterranean Homesick Blues - Bob Dylan
11. He War - Cat Power
12. Millionaire - Kelis ft. Andre 3000
13. You Spin Me Right Round - Dead Or Alive
14. What's Hideous - Do Me Bad Things
15. Sweetness - Jimmy Eat World
16. Love Will Tear Us Apart Again - Joy Division
17. Blue Monday - New Order
18. Hounds Of Love - Kate Bush
19. Dance Hall - Modest Mouse
20. Don't Give Up - Noisettes
21. With You - The Subways
22. Dragosteia Din Tei - O-zone
Stuart lets me sit behind the counter and fiddle with the music. There are really tuff-buff guys, with spandex and mullets, so I set up some ultra-camp playlists to make them all feel uncomfortable. Some favourites of mine are Y.M.C.A (Village People), You Spin Me Right Round (Dead Or Alive), It's Raining Men (The Weather Girls), Switch It On (Will Young) and a whole lot of Kelly Clarkson. While one bald muscle-bound man yelled "What is this? G.A.Y." one rather slender man came up and THANKED me for the excellent selection. I also like to dance behind the counter and pull faces at the people trying to look like buff men.
I took photography that no one appreciates. When I am thin I will have huge exhibitions where we will have wine and biscuits.
I had my first diet-induced hallucination on Sunday. I was facing up the chiller at work, dragging all the frozen meals from the back to the front when I literally jumped back and landed on my ass (luckily it cushioned my fall, lol) because I saw the entire contents from the meat section come forward like it was about to fall on top of me.
Fransisco is an adorable Spanish actor who has come to England to learn English from scratch. I speak to him in Spanish and tutor him in English as best as I can. He was able to say "thank you so much for absolutely everything" before he left, though I heard from some of the duty managers that he'll be fired soon. Why? Because he's not so good at English. WHAT? He understands if you make an effort, and he's the hardest working cleaner we have ever had at that store. When he was vacuuming some horrid brats were running around him. "Odio ninos!"
1. Safety Dance - Men Without Hats (hahaha)
2. Rock Me Amadeus - Falco (R.I.P)
3. Idioteque - Radiohead
4. Whenever, Wherever (whatever) - Shakira
5. Not With You - Tegan And Sara
6. Shameless - Ani Difranco (lovvve)
7. I Don't Care! - Ricky Martin (I know!!)
8. The Ashtray Girl - Placebo
9. Toxic - Britney Spears (SORRY)
10. Subterranean Homesick Blues - Bob Dylan
11. He War - Cat Power
12. Millionaire - Kelis ft. Andre 3000
13. You Spin Me Right Round - Dead Or Alive
14. What's Hideous - Do Me Bad Things
15. Sweetness - Jimmy Eat World
16. Love Will Tear Us Apart Again - Joy Division
17. Blue Monday - New Order
18. Hounds Of Love - Kate Bush
19. Dance Hall - Modest Mouse
20. Don't Give Up - Noisettes
21. With You - The Subways
22. Dragosteia Din Tei - O-zone
Stuart lets me sit behind the counter and fiddle with the music. There are really tuff-buff guys, with spandex and mullets, so I set up some ultra-camp playlists to make them all feel uncomfortable. Some favourites of mine are Y.M.C.A (Village People), You Spin Me Right Round (Dead Or Alive), It's Raining Men (The Weather Girls), Switch It On (Will Young) and a whole lot of Kelly Clarkson. While one bald muscle-bound man yelled "What is this? G.A.Y." one rather slender man came up and THANKED me for the excellent selection. I also like to dance behind the counter and pull faces at the people trying to look like buff men.
I took photography that no one appreciates. When I am thin I will have huge exhibitions where we will have wine and biscuits.