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I sat here tonight, talking online with new friends, old friends and new people. Having a glass of wine, ok scratch that on third bottle, while making my hubby some strong mixed drinks. Everyone has left the chats but, I sit and laugh with my hubby. Laughing till I am actually crying. I mean flowing down my face.
I could blame it on the wine, but I don't it's my hubby. How could I ever want to run away from him. I know at times things get bad in my life, memories flood in, stress beats down and all I want to do is leave everything behind. But all in all. I have it pretty damn good.
I'm with my soul mate and anyone that has seen us together knows this. I know I have done things, will do things and will say things but all in all I can honestly say that I my life would be a big dung hole without him.
*singing* It's Sappy time, doodoodoodoo, bring it down now. (really bad MC Hammer imitation)
Yes folks I'm buzzing, I have found that no matter how many beers I have it takes at least a dozen to get me even buzzed anymore, but the sugar in wine just hypes me up...so I mix the two and I'm a happy little camper - well I don't want to be drunk folks!! (um to clarify I have had only 2 beers tonight)
Ok back to sappy. Any hoo...I found that I'm keeping me job for at least 10 mths so woohoo. Hubby and I can go back to trying to have kiddos, will sell this house b4 the end of the year so we don't need to freak when I do lose my job and will work with my instructor, in the writing class I'm taking, to see if I really do have any talent. So that maybe I can try and sell short stories or a novel. I hope I do but I really don't know if I have what it takes.
The Slash I write is for fun, but I find I rush it too much and if I took more time on the stories like I do with my others that people might REALLY like them. Most of the stories I write are het and are not really sexually based, well they are but hmmm ok the are, but I like horror...crimes...and I get vicious...Snuff is a good example. I let me agressions out. Eh whatever...
I look at my life right now, while wiping the happy tears from my face and wonder...where oh where do I come up with these things. I had a very happy childhood. Parents that are so great that friends and family are jealous, yet each child had probs and the youngest *grins* me was the wild child, daredevil and will try everything once no matter what was really the cost.
So where does it come from? I think and wonder then the evil little demons show their faces and say remember me, that's where this all comes from.
mmmmm....maybe that would be something I should do....write a story on each of my issues....buried alive (accident)....being smothered (as a joke by bother placing pillow over face and tickling me till I pass out numerous times), abuse (By boyfriends)...drugs...drinking...and others. Things that a girl who was brought up as good Christen shouldn't have had happened.
Or hey even the good parts, great family, good friends, partying, sneaking alcohol into dance halls - amusement parks and more, meeting my soul-mate, etc.
Well hey I'm sure tomorrow morning I will be looking at this and saying WTF, but lets have some fun right now while I think of it on this site. All that read this site know me better then those that only read the other. If you want me to write about something a story about something I mentioned let me know I'll do it. Not sure if anyone will want me to but it's out there. I will only write a fiction story ok, but it will be based off of something real.
Ha will you bite?? Will you test me??? How brave will you all be??? Hmmmmm??? I dare you all give me something....lets see if any of you will bite.
I could blame it on the wine, but I don't it's my hubby. How could I ever want to run away from him. I know at times things get bad in my life, memories flood in, stress beats down and all I want to do is leave everything behind. But all in all. I have it pretty damn good.
I'm with my soul mate and anyone that has seen us together knows this. I know I have done things, will do things and will say things but all in all I can honestly say that I my life would be a big dung hole without him.
*singing* It's Sappy time, doodoodoodoo, bring it down now. (really bad MC Hammer imitation)
Yes folks I'm buzzing, I have found that no matter how many beers I have it takes at least a dozen to get me even buzzed anymore, but the sugar in wine just hypes me up...so I mix the two and I'm a happy little camper - well I don't want to be drunk folks!! (um to clarify I have had only 2 beers tonight)
Ok back to sappy. Any hoo...I found that I'm keeping me job for at least 10 mths so woohoo. Hubby and I can go back to trying to have kiddos, will sell this house b4 the end of the year so we don't need to freak when I do lose my job and will work with my instructor, in the writing class I'm taking, to see if I really do have any talent. So that maybe I can try and sell short stories or a novel. I hope I do but I really don't know if I have what it takes.
The Slash I write is for fun, but I find I rush it too much and if I took more time on the stories like I do with my others that people might REALLY like them. Most of the stories I write are het and are not really sexually based, well they are but hmmm ok the are, but I like horror...crimes...and I get vicious...Snuff is a good example. I let me agressions out. Eh whatever...
I look at my life right now, while wiping the happy tears from my face and wonder...where oh where do I come up with these things. I had a very happy childhood. Parents that are so great that friends and family are jealous, yet each child had probs and the youngest *grins* me was the wild child, daredevil and will try everything once no matter what was really the cost.
So where does it come from? I think and wonder then the evil little demons show their faces and say remember me, that's where this all comes from.
mmmmm....maybe that would be something I should do....write a story on each of my issues....buried alive (accident)....being smothered (as a joke by bother placing pillow over face and tickling me till I pass out numerous times), abuse (By boyfriends)...drugs...drinking...and others. Things that a girl who was brought up as good Christen shouldn't have had happened.
Or hey even the good parts, great family, good friends, partying, sneaking alcohol into dance halls - amusement parks and more, meeting my soul-mate, etc.
Well hey I'm sure tomorrow morning I will be looking at this and saying WTF, but lets have some fun right now while I think of it on this site. All that read this site know me better then those that only read the other. If you want me to write about something a story about something I mentioned let me know I'll do it. Not sure if anyone will want me to but it's out there. I will only write a fiction story ok, but it will be based off of something real.
Ha will you bite?? Will you test me??? How brave will you all be??? Hmmmmm??? I dare you all give me something....lets see if any of you will bite.