i guess things are fine.
jamie and i have still been talking despite the "break" we were taking. yes, were. last night we decided to end it. i honestly believe its all becuase of me. i called him crying and i sent him an e-mail and all and i was just being pathetic. but i couldnt help it. i love him so much. he told me that he didnt want to take the break anymore over and over so i finally said okay and we ended the break. i think the only reason he wanted to stop was cause he feels so bad for hurting me. he even said that was the reason once but then he said that there was more too it than just me hurting. he said he really does want me back because he cant take it. but i know its my fault. and i kinda feel bad cause he just wanted some time to himself to figure things out with himself and i wouldnt even leave him alone long enough to let him have that time. i had to go and make it hard on him and make him feel bad for wanting to be alone. he said that he realizes how much i love him now and that he realizes how much he really loves me cause he didnt know what he had till it was gone. the thing is we still talked on the phone and we only missed seeing each other for one day. we took the break wed. didnt see one another on thursday and its now friday and he is suppossed to be coming over tonight. im so happy but then again, im so ashamed. but we will see how things go. tonight we will probably have another talk about everything and if we decide that we are going to take another break, then ill just accept it. for real this time. and ill know what not to do. so... school is canceled next mon and tues, for the whole state of ga. gas prices are suppossed to go up way high. so thats why. nothing to do with the weather but just the gas. i gtg.