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so today is friday. I always have liked fridays...as adam and ryan debated...once long ago....friday is the best day because of anticipation....u have to do work...but u know that something better is just beyond reach. I guess today started out like that....I woke up in a pretty good mood....I was going to be going out today...maybe meeting some cool people and such. But I soon was reminded that I am alone here....ppl come into my room, only to ignore me so they can talk to the roomate. I know im not the most exciting person, but fuck...im not invisible. I did end up going out though...even if it was by myself. I guess thats just how things have to be sometimes. It wasnt all bad.....I got some time to think and appreciate what is important to me. The thing is I dont really know what that is....the person im in love with...but cannot see or touch? My family who I am alienated from? my friends who are constantly moving further and further from that familiar place we started from...I wish I had my car at times like this....thats what I miss..being able to go around no where in particular but just blasting music and letting this amazing thing go on around me. I guess I just wish I could go back to that moment with Adam and Ryan when things were just that simple....but its not like that anymore....now our debates will have to wait till the next time we are all gathered around a table discussing the universe as it passes us by.