I Loved You With A Fire Red
I Work Tomorrow 10:00 to 5:00
I Will Be Going To Bed Soon,
Otherwise I Will Be A Wreck Tomorrow.
I Find Myself Missing A Lot Of People Lately.
There's A Very Empty Hole In My Life,
And I'm Not So Sure How To Fix It.
I Have Family, And I Have Friends.
But It Doesn't Have Anything To Do With That.
I Have A Lot Of Things In My Mind That Won't Go Away.
Sometimes I Think I'm A Skitzo.
I Know Everything About Myself,
But At The Same Time I'm Unsure Of Everything I Do.
I Try To Figure Out My Likes And Dislikes..
And I Don't know If From One Day To Another If They're Gonna Be The Same.
I Don't Think I'm Ready To Love Again.
The Last Experience Was Way To Hard To Get Over..
I'm Still Not Over It.
No One Will Ever Love Me The Same Again.
And I Don't Expect Anyone To.
But There Are Basics In The Begging Of Every Relationship.
Like A Friendly Good Morning Message,
To A Kiss Good Night.
My New Relationship Lacks A Lot Of The Basics.
I Feel As If I Am A Back Up Plan..
As If I Am Never Going To Amount To His Expectations.
I Don't Think Bad Of Myself.
There's Nothing Wrong With Me.
I Just Feel As If I Am Not What He Is Looking For.
He Disagrees And Says I Just Think To Much.
But Something Is Missing..
And I Don't Know If It's Because I'm Comparing Him To Kevin,
Or If We Just Don't Connect On That Level.
Well My Birthday's In 18 Days.
I Can't Believe I'll Be 19.
I Never Thought I'd Make It This Far.
I Remember When I Was Young And I'd Look Forward To My Birthday.
It's So Silly How You Care So Much About Little Things When You're Little.
And You're Forced To Care About Making Big Decisions When You're Big.
I Don't Think I'll Ever Figure Out The Thought Process.
Maybe I Can Get A Glimpse Caught In A Dream....
Good Night
I Will Be Going To Bed Soon,
Otherwise I Will Be A Wreck Tomorrow.
I Find Myself Missing A Lot Of People Lately.
There's A Very Empty Hole In My Life,
And I'm Not So Sure How To Fix It.
I Have Family, And I Have Friends.
But It Doesn't Have Anything To Do With That.
I Have A Lot Of Things In My Mind That Won't Go Away.
Sometimes I Think I'm A Skitzo.
I Know Everything About Myself,
But At The Same Time I'm Unsure Of Everything I Do.
I Try To Figure Out My Likes And Dislikes..
And I Don't know If From One Day To Another If They're Gonna Be The Same.
I Don't Think I'm Ready To Love Again.
The Last Experience Was Way To Hard To Get Over..
I'm Still Not Over It.
No One Will Ever Love Me The Same Again.
And I Don't Expect Anyone To.
But There Are Basics In The Begging Of Every Relationship.
Like A Friendly Good Morning Message,
To A Kiss Good Night.
My New Relationship Lacks A Lot Of The Basics.
I Feel As If I Am A Back Up Plan..
As If I Am Never Going To Amount To His Expectations.
I Don't Think Bad Of Myself.
There's Nothing Wrong With Me.
I Just Feel As If I Am Not What He Is Looking For.
He Disagrees And Says I Just Think To Much.
But Something Is Missing..
And I Don't Know If It's Because I'm Comparing Him To Kevin,
Or If We Just Don't Connect On That Level.
Well My Birthday's In 18 Days.
I Can't Believe I'll Be 19.
I Never Thought I'd Make It This Far.
I Remember When I Was Young And I'd Look Forward To My Birthday.
It's So Silly How You Care So Much About Little Things When You're Little.
And You're Forced To Care About Making Big Decisions When You're Big.
I Don't Think I'll Ever Figure Out The Thought Process.
Maybe I Can Get A Glimpse Caught In A Dream....
Good Night