Is It Any Wonder I Can't Sleep

[anjoel]

Today was a really bad day for me..
My alarm clock got unplugged somehow,
and I didn't wake up for work until 2 1/2 hours
after I was supposed to be there.
Incidently I got fired.
My friend is pissed off at me since he got me the job.
I feel like a total piece of shit.
I'm seriously thinking about getting the fuck out of here.
I went to the Army Reserve office today to get some information.
I think joining would be a really good thing for me.
I can't escape my problems in the army.
I don't know it's just a thought.
One I'd have to think really hard about.
I'm not really in a negative mood,
I just have alot going on right now.
I told him I loved him..
And I didn't get the same response.
He really does care, but I guess he cant say it yet.
I don't know if I want to see him anymore.
We have no title,
I feel like shit can end at any moment.
And the thought of that breaks my heart on it's own.
He will be the one to destroy me.
I guess it's human nature to do things you know are gonna fuck up,
but it feels so good at the time, but you just don't care.