Listening to a song that put me in this mood
"Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find"
"The best thing about tonight is that we're not fighting.."
I wish I was the girl no one would ever forget, the woman who made a difference. The one he can't live without. The best friend she needs. Everything.
But I think I won't ever be, and I want to accept that.
High school was a waste. The friends I had then have no interest in me now. They may think low of me, I don't know what they think of me. Don't really care anymore.
Because what you think of the people around you is usually wrong.
"Talk is cheap"
Really knowing someone is probably the hardest thing to accomplish. I'm an open person...always have been. But I could tell you everything about me and you still won't know me. And I have now come to realize that it is the people that truly understand me that I continue to be friends with.
Because for some reason, I can't stand a lot of people-and in return they can't stand me apparently.
Those girls that party- don't like them.
The girls who chase after pretty boys- certainly not.
Girls who sleep around- fuck no.
This is a big one..
People who have parents that would do anything for them, these kids who don't need to work, these KIDS that get to enjoy these years in their life- and still choose to focus on little dramas and complain about everything they can think of. These kids surrounded me at CHS...mainly because there are a lot of families living in this town that are pretty well off.
Please, be grateful for what you have, yeah sure everyone makes stupid choices at some point
But stop making them even though you know it's stupid.
People go out partying like crazy every night, make out with people they barely know and sometimes have sex with them. Girls get pregnant and then cry about it, you asked for that. Guys whine because they got their girlfriend pregnant or maybe some random girl, your own fault.
you knew what you were doing was stupid, but you still did it, and you would do it again. Sometimes they already have..
Do you see me? Hi, I'm anjelita
I only regret one choice, one guy I dated. Because nothing good came from that, I just lost a lot of money (my own stupid choice), and a lot of self esteem, and now the fact that I dated him hurts the relationship I am in now.
And the one I'm in now is one I really care about.
But other than that I really have no regrets.
all the choices I made I thought about.
and see, I'm not pregnant, I'm in college, taking care of myself. I've never had an abusive boyfriend and never will. I'll never again let a guy use me for anything.
But yeah, I may come off as a slut, because what? I'm skinny? Maybe pretty? That doesn't mean shit. In high school there were people who thought that I partied all the time, thought I drank a lot and did drugs. Yeah, no. I just worked my ass off. That's all. A job. And because of how hard I worked myself then and how hard I am working myself now I will always be ok.
Because even if one day I lose my career. If I somehow end up a single mother, I'll be alright, cause I can do this shit. I can handle not having friends, no life, not ever EVER getting to "go out" and party. Sacrificing for something or someone else. Always. I'm good at it. Used to it.
But these people who spend their time out partying, or living off their parents, good luck if you ever fall on hard times.
Suicide only hurts the people in your life, remember that.
I'm just saying, babbling, this is all unorganized and probably no one will read it.
But...I don't care.
Have a great day, don't get too drunk and please keep your legs closed. Go get a job, and stop being stupid-you aren't fooling anyone, just letting them down, and you're letting yourself down.
Remember-
You raised your kids, you were in complete control of how they were molded during their critical period and also through all their early stages.
How they are is how you raised them to be, whether you meant to or not. No parent has a right to kick their child out, and also parents who give their kids everything aren't so great either.
Just pointing that out.
You're impossible to find"
"The best thing about tonight is that we're not fighting.."
I wish I was the girl no one would ever forget, the woman who made a difference. The one he can't live without. The best friend she needs. Everything.
But I think I won't ever be, and I want to accept that.
High school was a waste. The friends I had then have no interest in me now. They may think low of me, I don't know what they think of me. Don't really care anymore.
Because what you think of the people around you is usually wrong.
"Talk is cheap"
Really knowing someone is probably the hardest thing to accomplish. I'm an open person...always have been. But I could tell you everything about me and you still won't know me. And I have now come to realize that it is the people that truly understand me that I continue to be friends with.
Because for some reason, I can't stand a lot of people-and in return they can't stand me apparently.
Those girls that party- don't like them.
The girls who chase after pretty boys- certainly not.
Girls who sleep around- fuck no.
This is a big one..
People who have parents that would do anything for them, these kids who don't need to work, these KIDS that get to enjoy these years in their life- and still choose to focus on little dramas and complain about everything they can think of. These kids surrounded me at CHS...mainly because there are a lot of families living in this town that are pretty well off.
Please, be grateful for what you have, yeah sure everyone makes stupid choices at some point
But stop making them even though you know it's stupid.
People go out partying like crazy every night, make out with people they barely know and sometimes have sex with them. Girls get pregnant and then cry about it, you asked for that. Guys whine because they got their girlfriend pregnant or maybe some random girl, your own fault.
you knew what you were doing was stupid, but you still did it, and you would do it again. Sometimes they already have..
Do you see me? Hi, I'm anjelita
I only regret one choice, one guy I dated. Because nothing good came from that, I just lost a lot of money (my own stupid choice), and a lot of self esteem, and now the fact that I dated him hurts the relationship I am in now.
And the one I'm in now is one I really care about.
But other than that I really have no regrets.
all the choices I made I thought about.
and see, I'm not pregnant, I'm in college, taking care of myself. I've never had an abusive boyfriend and never will. I'll never again let a guy use me for anything.
But yeah, I may come off as a slut, because what? I'm skinny? Maybe pretty? That doesn't mean shit. In high school there were people who thought that I partied all the time, thought I drank a lot and did drugs. Yeah, no. I just worked my ass off. That's all. A job. And because of how hard I worked myself then and how hard I am working myself now I will always be ok.
Because even if one day I lose my career. If I somehow end up a single mother, I'll be alright, cause I can do this shit. I can handle not having friends, no life, not ever EVER getting to "go out" and party. Sacrificing for something or someone else. Always. I'm good at it. Used to it.
But these people who spend their time out partying, or living off their parents, good luck if you ever fall on hard times.
Suicide only hurts the people in your life, remember that.
I'm just saying, babbling, this is all unorganized and probably no one will read it.
But...I don't care.
Have a great day, don't get too drunk and please keep your legs closed. Go get a job, and stop being stupid-you aren't fooling anyone, just letting them down, and you're letting yourself down.
Remember-
You raised your kids, you were in complete control of how they were molded during their critical period and also through all their early stages.
How they are is how you raised them to be, whether you meant to or not. No parent has a right to kick their child out, and also parents who give their kids everything aren't so great either.
Just pointing that out.