Theres so much I've felt I should say, but even if your heart would listen, I doubt I could explain
BRAD,
All I want to do is make you happy even if that means I'm not with you. I wish everything would just go back to normal, I wish we could go back to the beginning. Even though it didn't last for very long you made a deep impact on my heart, like a burn makes a scar; you forever burnt my heart, now you will be there no matter what you say or do, but hopefully someday soon I will be back with you. All I want is for you to know me again, for me to be in your life. And, even if it can't happen right now, I would just like to know that you heard my plea. I would just like to know that I'm not erased like one of your other girls from your memory. I guess this is all my fault, and if I hurt you them I'm sorry. I'm being pulled in so many different directions. And all this drama happening at my house, with my parents divorcing, and me trying to get a job and all just makes things even more hectic. Everything should be settled down by the end of the month, maybe then we can try again then? I wish I knew what you were thinking. Your so mysterious. Your words and actions are so misleading, is it not for me to know? I think it's just hard for you to show. Sometimes I wonder, if you really care or if you even think of me when I'm not there, sometimes I wonder if I was even in your heart, or if I was being used from the start. I tell you everything, but I wish I could tell you that you mean everything to me. And everything I wanna tell you is everything I wish you’d say. But I'm scared of getting hurt...so I don't say a thing. And it’s hard because you have that whole ‘player’ reputation and I know you’ll probably cheat and I know you’ll probably lie but I’ll still be here sayin that I don’t want any other guy. All your imperfections make you that more perfect to me. And I know that I may not get to see you as often as I’d like, or hold you all through the night. But inside my heart I know that this is true and no matter what happens to us I’ll always love you. And if you feel the same we will never part. We can make it through anything. Show me you love me and I will give you my heart and tell me when I am gone you will miss me and take me into your arms and kiss me. And today I will give this one last try, and then I’ll wonder why, I did this to myself again...
All I want to do is make you happy even if that means I'm not with you. I wish everything would just go back to normal, I wish we could go back to the beginning. Even though it didn't last for very long you made a deep impact on my heart, like a burn makes a scar; you forever burnt my heart, now you will be there no matter what you say or do, but hopefully someday soon I will be back with you. All I want is for you to know me again, for me to be in your life. And, even if it can't happen right now, I would just like to know that you heard my plea. I would just like to know that I'm not erased like one of your other girls from your memory. I guess this is all my fault, and if I hurt you them I'm sorry. I'm being pulled in so many different directions. And all this drama happening at my house, with my parents divorcing, and me trying to get a job and all just makes things even more hectic. Everything should be settled down by the end of the month, maybe then we can try again then? I wish I knew what you were thinking. Your so mysterious. Your words and actions are so misleading, is it not for me to know? I think it's just hard for you to show. Sometimes I wonder, if you really care or if you even think of me when I'm not there, sometimes I wonder if I was even in your heart, or if I was being used from the start. I tell you everything, but I wish I could tell you that you mean everything to me. And everything I wanna tell you is everything I wish you’d say. But I'm scared of getting hurt...so I don't say a thing. And it’s hard because you have that whole ‘player’ reputation and I know you’ll probably cheat and I know you’ll probably lie but I’ll still be here sayin that I don’t want any other guy. All your imperfections make you that more perfect to me. And I know that I may not get to see you as often as I’d like, or hold you all through the night. But inside my heart I know that this is true and no matter what happens to us I’ll always love you. And if you feel the same we will never part. We can make it through anything. Show me you love me and I will give you my heart and tell me when I am gone you will miss me and take me into your arms and kiss me. And today I will give this one last try, and then I’ll wonder why, I did this to myself again...