This Could Have Happened to Me
Raped, pregnant and ordeal not over
She had to fight to keep her rapist from seeing her child. He should have no rights to that child. NONE! I'm lucky that I don't know who my rapist was (is). I have that so blocked from my mind and I'm thankful for that. I don't want to remember that person.
All of this talk of rape recently has been bringing a lot of the memories of that night to the forefront for me, but I'm lucky that I cannot see his face. I DON'T want to see his face. My son (whom I had because I was raped) is amazing in his own right and I won't let the man who did that to me take that away from him. He's had to deal with enough knowing that it's because of a horrible and cowardice act that he is here. He's not dealt well with that. I can't blame him.
I just wish people would realize that rape, in all its ugliness, isn't about sex. It is about having power and control over another person. It's about humiliation. It's harmful and it hurts so many.
I will never know who raped me. I don't want to. I do know that I hope that other women who do become pregnant because of being raped and decide to carry their pregnancy to term and raise the child never have to deal with their rapist again by putting that rapist continually in her life. That is like him raping her all over again.
(Yes, I know I left this public. I know it's not the full story of what happened to me, but my story needs to be heard, just like all of the other rape victims out there. I've been silent too long.)
She had to fight to keep her rapist from seeing her child. He should have no rights to that child. NONE! I'm lucky that I don't know who my rapist was (is). I have that so blocked from my mind and I'm thankful for that. I don't want to remember that person.
All of this talk of rape recently has been bringing a lot of the memories of that night to the forefront for me, but I'm lucky that I cannot see his face. I DON'T want to see his face. My son (whom I had because I was raped) is amazing in his own right and I won't let the man who did that to me take that away from him. He's had to deal with enough knowing that it's because of a horrible and cowardice act that he is here. He's not dealt well with that. I can't blame him.
I just wish people would realize that rape, in all its ugliness, isn't about sex. It is about having power and control over another person. It's about humiliation. It's harmful and it hurts so many.
I will never know who raped me. I don't want to. I do know that I hope that other women who do become pregnant because of being raped and decide to carry their pregnancy to term and raise the child never have to deal with their rapist again by putting that rapist continually in her life. That is like him raping her all over again.
(Yes, I know I left this public. I know it's not the full story of what happened to me, but my story needs to be heard, just like all of the other rape victims out there. I've been silent too long.)