Six months

[anjala]

So, today is the 6-month anniversary of the murder of Jeremy and Kyleigh Crane. Also, on December 8, 2011, I lost my best friend, Ginny Fletcher, at the age of 55 to a stroke. Then, on December 16, 2011, my last grandparent, my papaw, Charles Richard Cross passed away from this life at the age of 92. That week was a week of pure hell for me, as

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[runeenigma]

I hear you. I don't deal with it well, either. I'm just now learning that it's okay to feel angry sometimes, and that scares me! As far as "supposed to," meh, I don't like those words when applied to emotion. Emotions have their own logic, and they are very real. Some victorian standard meant to control us, that might be good in a theoretical world, but this is real life.

I know, in my brain, that forgiveness is not as much about the other person as it is about saying, "I'm not going to let the way I feel about that person screw up the rest of my life forever." But knowing that in my brain and making it connect with my gut, those are two different things. Maybe, sometimes, it's not about forgiving the person as much as it's about forgiving the universe, or reality, or G-d; it's different for everyone. Or it might be the person. I don't know.

I only know it takes as long as it takes, and for me, it's a process. I wish I had some faster tricks.

I just want you to know that I love and care about you. You can rant, curse, be angry, get it out, say whatever will help, and I will still be supportive.