The End
I'm happy, so why can't I just be happy? I'm with the most wonderful man I've ever met, I'm living (mostly) independent of my parents, I work somewhere I actually like...but I find reasons to spoil my own fun. When I hate my job, that can be my focus; when my relationships fail, that can be my focus; when I have to do everything my parents command, I can let that make me miserable. Now that those axis of my life are tolerable I am channeling my negative energy to my sister. I hate/resent her. I have almost no happy feelings toward her, the worst part is that she didn't exactly do anything. Well, she never does anything and that's a HUGE part of the problem...but not the heart of it. In all actuality, she has what I want and I can't get...I lose and there's nothing that can console me. I just don't measure up...normally I can surpass her, but in this she's untouchable...that makes her special and I can't deal...end of story.