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one thing that i'm not super happy with in my life right now is how lazy i've gotten about my appearance. i barely ever wash my face, it's still a daily struggle for me make fitness a priority, and i just feel like i look sloppy all the time, never polished or put together. i mean, i must still look somewhat ok, but i'm putting in less than zero effort and i don't feel good about it. i need to start exercising, getting sun, and taking care of my skin/nails/hair, and i can do all of that if i can just muster the energy/effort.
but one thing that i really need to do is go to sephora and get someone to teach me how to wear makeup. i never really learned. my mother certainly never taught me how to wear makeup, and then i had skin problems in high school that made it all but impossible. so all of a sudden i am in my twenties, and i wear powder, undereye concealer, and eyeliner ON A GOOD DAY, and i don't know what i'm doing and i actually feel like i look worse AFTER i put makeup on. i never have been, and don't want to be, the type of girl who wears a full face of makeup and blows a huge chunk of my paychecks on the stuff. but it is getting to be a real issue that i just don't know how to make my face look polished. i really have no idea how to make myself look special for a night out, or professional for an interview. i don't even know what my problem is...am i buying the wrong type of products? the wrong shades? am i applying things incorrectly? all of the above?
my wardrobe tends towards the simple, and at least until i start making much more money i don't see that changing anytime soon. but jeans, a black t-shirt, and flats can look NICE if your hair and makeup look nice. because when it all comes down to it, it isn't that i'm unattractive and need makeup to change that - it's that i constantly look immature, messy, and haphazardly thrown together.
i'm pretty loathe to go into the fucking mall and let someone touch my face and then spend money on products i'm not particularly interested in, but i need something here. i need someone to TEACH ME what i am supposed to do with this stuff. so that is probably going to happen sometime this week, i'd say. even though i need to be spending money. sigh.
but one thing that i really need to do is go to sephora and get someone to teach me how to wear makeup. i never really learned. my mother certainly never taught me how to wear makeup, and then i had skin problems in high school that made it all but impossible. so all of a sudden i am in my twenties, and i wear powder, undereye concealer, and eyeliner ON A GOOD DAY, and i don't know what i'm doing and i actually feel like i look worse AFTER i put makeup on. i never have been, and don't want to be, the type of girl who wears a full face of makeup and blows a huge chunk of my paychecks on the stuff. but it is getting to be a real issue that i just don't know how to make my face look polished. i really have no idea how to make myself look special for a night out, or professional for an interview. i don't even know what my problem is...am i buying the wrong type of products? the wrong shades? am i applying things incorrectly? all of the above?
my wardrobe tends towards the simple, and at least until i start making much more money i don't see that changing anytime soon. but jeans, a black t-shirt, and flats can look NICE if your hair and makeup look nice. because when it all comes down to it, it isn't that i'm unattractive and need makeup to change that - it's that i constantly look immature, messy, and haphazardly thrown together.
i'm pretty loathe to go into the fucking mall and let someone touch my face and then spend money on products i'm not particularly interested in, but i need something here. i need someone to TEACH ME what i am supposed to do with this stuff. so that is probably going to happen sometime this week, i'd say. even though i need to be spending money. sigh.