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I'm suffering from slight insomnia. This is the first time I've dealt with it in about 6 years. I'm really tired, but I feel too antsy to go to bed.
I felt slightly crushed today when I realized that someone I really liked and admired as an artist is actually kind of stupid. He's really cool, and I met him through my photo class last year. He always has amazing pictures of crazy things, and I always wanted to be his friend, if anything so that I'd have a good photo buddy. It seems that everyone has a good photo buddy but I guess I'm just not cool enough to have one.
So anyway, we've been talking a lot more this year than we did last year because we have three classes together, and up until today it was always just stupid small talk, and we were outside waiting for our cyanotypes to turn blue out in the sun, and he was talking about something...I don't remember what, but it suddenly dawned on me that, "hey. This kid is kind of stupid." Not in that "idiot" kind of way. It's more that now when I talk to him, I sort of regard him as a five year old, because that's kind of what he reminds me of.
I still think he's a great artist, but it makes me a little sad because I wanted a friend that I could talk to about stupid shit in the class with...stuff our teacher said, break into abandoned buildings to take pictures with, and I really don't mean to sound pretentious when I say this, but I just don't think I can deal with someone that I feel has the maturity and intelligence of a small child. I like fairly deep conversations. Not even deep conversations, but I like the people that I associate with to at least be quick enough to catch onto subtle wit and sarcasm.
Oh well. I guess I'm just going to be a loner in the photo community. So sad. (Not really. I have my wonderful boyfriend that is better than any photo buddy could ever be!)
I'm sure everyone is getting sick of polaroids, so here's something to mix it up a bit. This is an old picture, but I haven't posted it yet. :-P
(sorry about the size. It's a little big.)
I felt slightly crushed today when I realized that someone I really liked and admired as an artist is actually kind of stupid. He's really cool, and I met him through my photo class last year. He always has amazing pictures of crazy things, and I always wanted to be his friend, if anything so that I'd have a good photo buddy. It seems that everyone has a good photo buddy but I guess I'm just not cool enough to have one.
So anyway, we've been talking a lot more this year than we did last year because we have three classes together, and up until today it was always just stupid small talk, and we were outside waiting for our cyanotypes to turn blue out in the sun, and he was talking about something...I don't remember what, but it suddenly dawned on me that, "hey. This kid is kind of stupid." Not in that "idiot" kind of way. It's more that now when I talk to him, I sort of regard him as a five year old, because that's kind of what he reminds me of.
I still think he's a great artist, but it makes me a little sad because I wanted a friend that I could talk to about stupid shit in the class with...stuff our teacher said, break into abandoned buildings to take pictures with, and I really don't mean to sound pretentious when I say this, but I just don't think I can deal with someone that I feel has the maturity and intelligence of a small child. I like fairly deep conversations. Not even deep conversations, but I like the people that I associate with to at least be quick enough to catch onto subtle wit and sarcasm.
Oh well. I guess I'm just going to be a loner in the photo community. So sad. (Not really. I have my wonderful boyfriend that is better than any photo buddy could ever be!)
I'm sure everyone is getting sick of polaroids, so here's something to mix it up a bit. This is an old picture, but I haven't posted it yet. :-P
(sorry about the size. It's a little big.)