sick, exhausted, Not Prepared!
Well, until just now, I realized I have a test today. I guess my mind just isn't here in this place. Oh well. I better find it soon, otherwise I'm screwed. I just had a lot of crap pileing up on me last week. Which was alright I guess but not really. I just couldn't take it. I'm surprised I didn't explode. I've also been going off a lot lately on my family. I'm getting sick and tired of their bullshit. I feel stupid complaining about it sometimes becasue normally I would just take matters in to my own hands but it just feels like I have no control. So I'm saying, fuck what anyone else thinks. I think about what I would do if I was at my own house and how I would act there. I would just tell him to shoe it up their ass and be done with it. So thats what I'm doing here. I've been having some minor issues with my cousins husband. He thinks a good way to punish a 3 yr. old child is by yelling at them from the top of your lungs and making them feel like they should of known better in situations that they dont quite understand. Dosn't he realize that a three yr. old is still developing and that yelling at them isn't going to solve anything. Anyways, I've told him to chill out a couple of times in a bitchy yet suttle way. I didn't even know I could be a bitchy suttel. Anyways, my mom has already asked me if he has gotton in my face and I said no, but he will regret the day that he does it if he decides to. I'm not like his wife. I let no one, especially a man, push me around, as should all woman be. But, thats my opinion. I'm just really tired of dealing with all of them.
My aunt tried to take money from me as well. I finally got my loan check in and all of a sudden she asks me for a hundred dollars because I suppossedly owed her for my school books. I told her no, I'm not giving you a damn dime. My mom wrote her out a check for six hundred dollars. If I owed her a hundred more then she should of said something. But she didn't. Not my fault. Then, when I wanted to go shopping for new clothes so I asked my cousin if she would take me to the mall. Then my aunt got brought up in to the conversation and she told me that my aunt told her to make sure I paid her for gas. Thats when I blew up. Ask rosy, she was there. I said " Malissa, I'm sorry but I'm not paying you gas money. I do a lot for you people and I'm fucking family. I dont think that it's right for ANYBODY in this god forsaken family to ask me to pay them for anything. I watch your fucking kids when you dont even ask me to do it. I clean your god damn house when asked and when not asked. I run stupid errons with you when I dont want to . I attend crap that I dont want to attend. I help the damn kids with their homework. I do all this fucking shit and I dont get paid a fucking dime. And do I complain about it? NO!!!! Because family helps out. But if you are gonna start demanding me of money, you better check yourself because I'm not dishing out a damn fucking cent just because your mad I dont tell you shit. Yes, my life is a fucking mystery to these people but I dont trust them as far as I can throw them. And thats not far. So, you can back the fuck off me and leave me the hell alone. I'll do your stupid little chores that you ask me to do but if you dare ask me to pay for a stupid fucking thing again I will write you out a fucking bill and charge you for every single god damn thing you have made me do since I fucking got here.". Most of that I didn't say but a majority of it I said, just sum it up. Either way, I'm getting real sick an tired of people taking advantage of me because I dont have a car. They know damn well I cant go anywhere I want because I have no way to get there. Well, Hopefully next semester that will change.
Well, anyways, thanks to those of you who read this. I just needed to get this out. Maybe there will be more in the future. WHo knows. All I know is that since the holidays are coming up it's gonna be hecteck!! Thanks for all of you who have been supporting me and listen to me rant and rave. I appreciate it more then you know.
My aunt tried to take money from me as well. I finally got my loan check in and all of a sudden she asks me for a hundred dollars because I suppossedly owed her for my school books. I told her no, I'm not giving you a damn dime. My mom wrote her out a check for six hundred dollars. If I owed her a hundred more then she should of said something. But she didn't. Not my fault. Then, when I wanted to go shopping for new clothes so I asked my cousin if she would take me to the mall. Then my aunt got brought up in to the conversation and she told me that my aunt told her to make sure I paid her for gas. Thats when I blew up. Ask rosy, she was there. I said " Malissa, I'm sorry but I'm not paying you gas money. I do a lot for you people and I'm fucking family. I dont think that it's right for ANYBODY in this god forsaken family to ask me to pay them for anything. I watch your fucking kids when you dont even ask me to do it. I clean your god damn house when asked and when not asked. I run stupid errons with you when I dont want to . I attend crap that I dont want to attend. I help the damn kids with their homework. I do all this fucking shit and I dont get paid a fucking dime. And do I complain about it? NO!!!! Because family helps out. But if you are gonna start demanding me of money, you better check yourself because I'm not dishing out a damn fucking cent just because your mad I dont tell you shit. Yes, my life is a fucking mystery to these people but I dont trust them as far as I can throw them. And thats not far. So, you can back the fuck off me and leave me the hell alone. I'll do your stupid little chores that you ask me to do but if you dare ask me to pay for a stupid fucking thing again I will write you out a fucking bill and charge you for every single god damn thing you have made me do since I fucking got here.". Most of that I didn't say but a majority of it I said, just sum it up. Either way, I'm getting real sick an tired of people taking advantage of me because I dont have a car. They know damn well I cant go anywhere I want because I have no way to get there. Well, Hopefully next semester that will change.
Well, anyways, thanks to those of you who read this. I just needed to get this out. Maybe there will be more in the future. WHo knows. All I know is that since the holidays are coming up it's gonna be hecteck!! Thanks for all of you who have been supporting me and listen to me rant and rave. I appreciate it more then you know.