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I'm kind of an emotional wreckage today.
I worked a really long day which didn't help i'm sure. michele is out of town so when jaime got home he was like "this might be the last time i see you before you leave..." and he told me how much they appreciate me and he said i did such a great job with the kids... and all sorts of stuff like that and i cried and cried.
i feel like everything hit me tonight. i didn't realize how scared i was about moving to utah. it's not in a bad way... it's just the first time i'm actually doing this right and on my own. i'm going to live by myself, i found a job already... i don't know. i just really feel like once i'm there, in a completely new setting, everything is going to hit me. i feel like a time bomb. not that that's bad... just scary.
all of the emotions about finding michael and ritchie really hit me today too. it's all so so wonderful, it's just a HUGE deal... my life has completely changed in a matter of days. and it has changed even more over the past few months and there are just a lot of emotions to juggle.
i called my mom crying... and then she made me cry even more. one of her students died and she went to the funeral today. this 8 year old little girl with leukemia. she told me all about the funeral and we just cried.
then i almost bought a $340 BCBG dress. it's beautiful, but i refrained. i haven't even worn the marciano one that i bought months ago.
there's other stuff too. but i'm going to stop here.
ohhhh boy.
I worked a really long day which didn't help i'm sure. michele is out of town so when jaime got home he was like "this might be the last time i see you before you leave..." and he told me how much they appreciate me and he said i did such a great job with the kids... and all sorts of stuff like that and i cried and cried.
i feel like everything hit me tonight. i didn't realize how scared i was about moving to utah. it's not in a bad way... it's just the first time i'm actually doing this right and on my own. i'm going to live by myself, i found a job already... i don't know. i just really feel like once i'm there, in a completely new setting, everything is going to hit me. i feel like a time bomb. not that that's bad... just scary.
all of the emotions about finding michael and ritchie really hit me today too. it's all so so wonderful, it's just a HUGE deal... my life has completely changed in a matter of days. and it has changed even more over the past few months and there are just a lot of emotions to juggle.
i called my mom crying... and then she made me cry even more. one of her students died and she went to the funeral today. this 8 year old little girl with leukemia. she told me all about the funeral and we just cried.
then i almost bought a $340 BCBG dress. it's beautiful, but i refrained. i haven't even worn the marciano one that i bought months ago.
there's other stuff too. but i'm going to stop here.
ohhhh boy.