It's a new day, it's a new dawn, it's a new YEAR and I'm feeling...
GOOD.
Alright y'all.
All my posts lately have been エイト エイト エイト which is all well and good but it's time for some real life talk.
I want to set some goals for this year. I'm someone who, unfortunately, never ever seems to follow through with resolutions, but it's still important for me to set some so that I can at least have something to aim to. Besides, 何千回も夢を見て、何千回も諦めて。。。。 There's nothing to do but keep trying.
SO.
Goals.
1. Take the JLPT Exam. Most likely Level 3.
2. Meditate. I can't just read books about Zen Buddhism and meditation. I need to actually get out there and DO it more.
3. Love myself more. By this I mean taking better care of myself as far as my diet and general well-being.
4. Learn to play Onigishi on guitar.
I'd like to lose maybe 8kgs. But I hate making weight loss a goal. I don't know, I start focusing too much on the results and get impatient. I do much better when I simply focus on eating right and exercising without watching the scale. Today when I went to the gym I saw that I've lost 2kg. Whut? :O Must've been all that walking I did in the woods and then all the dancing at the Eito cons. I gained over fall/winter so really I'm just getting back to how I was in the summer when I was looking my best. So I want to get to 55kg which is about a kilogram less than what I weighed in the summer. Then from there I will aim for 52kg or maybe even 50kg, but I just don't want to think that far.
This year I hope to do a lot of things with Mariani, even if it's just for fun. I also hope to improve my Japanese. I realized when I went on my trip to Kansai just how much I actually know and can speak. I mean, I'd still only consider myself intermediate and my speaking needs A LOT of work, but it's nice to know that when I need to I CAN actually speak Japanese and have a conversation. The fact that I don't speak as much is because I get shy and choose not to which is RIDICULOUS on my part. Still, I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I'll just be patient with myself and hopefully I'll be put in more situations where I'll have to use Japanese so that I can slowly build up my confidence.
I'm going to write another letter to Subaru, but that's neither here nor there.
Next week I have my first ever voice acting gig.
The week after that I have the filming for that educational DVD which actually might turn out to be a one time thing. (Meaning I need to find more jobs.)
At the end of the month I have a photo shoot for some Ramen add.
I have no idea what I'm doing, really. These could all very well be one time things. I might not get jobs like this again for the rest of the year. But, for now, it feels good to be doing things I want to and actually GET PAID. It's definitely not a bad start to 2010! That's for sure! If anything, it's momentum to keep working hard and to just be patient. One day at a time. One step at a time. Things happen for a reason. I need to enjoy each day and just chill the fuck out.
And possibly get fucked. MY GOD I'm horny these days!!>__<
So tomorrow I'll go to the 100yen shop and although it's a little late I'll write my Kakizome for the year and then I'll hang them up on my wall. It's a nice little tradition I started after coming to Japan and I'm not planning to give it up.
Now I'm going to go paint my nails which I haven't done since the summer, before I entered my latest emo phase.
Then I'll possibly re-read the RP koneho and I finally finished after like, 10 years, and die of Subassan cute (or possibly just get a cavity).
Tomorrow there's dinner with art_house_queen to catch up and then clubbing with uchikins.
Right now I feel good and I'm going to enjoy it.
I'm not under any illusions that I'll feel this way the rest of the year. I know the next down wave will come. But that's ok. Because it's not what I'm experiencing now. I don't want to expect. I just want to experience.
So yeah.
Happy New Year guys!
Let's look forward to a bright future!
♥ and ∞
P.S. Um. Anyone know any good RyoYasu fic? That pairing needs to happen in my life like, yesterday.
Alright y'all.
All my posts lately have been エイト エイト エイト which is all well and good but it's time for some real life talk.
I want to set some goals for this year. I'm someone who, unfortunately, never ever seems to follow through with resolutions, but it's still important for me to set some so that I can at least have something to aim to. Besides, 何千回も夢を見て、何千回も諦めて。。。。 There's nothing to do but keep trying.
SO.
Goals.
1. Take the JLPT Exam. Most likely Level 3.
2. Meditate. I can't just read books about Zen Buddhism and meditation. I need to actually get out there and DO it more.
3. Love myself more. By this I mean taking better care of myself as far as my diet and general well-being.
4. Learn to play Onigishi on guitar.
I'd like to lose maybe 8kgs. But I hate making weight loss a goal. I don't know, I start focusing too much on the results and get impatient. I do much better when I simply focus on eating right and exercising without watching the scale. Today when I went to the gym I saw that I've lost 2kg. Whut? :O Must've been all that walking I did in the woods and then all the dancing at the Eito cons. I gained over fall/winter so really I'm just getting back to how I was in the summer when I was looking my best. So I want to get to 55kg which is about a kilogram less than what I weighed in the summer. Then from there I will aim for 52kg or maybe even 50kg, but I just don't want to think that far.
This year I hope to do a lot of things with Mariani, even if it's just for fun. I also hope to improve my Japanese. I realized when I went on my trip to Kansai just how much I actually know and can speak. I mean, I'd still only consider myself intermediate and my speaking needs A LOT of work, but it's nice to know that when I need to I CAN actually speak Japanese and have a conversation. The fact that I don't speak as much is because I get shy and choose not to which is RIDICULOUS on my part. Still, I'm not going to beat myself up over it. I'll just be patient with myself and hopefully I'll be put in more situations where I'll have to use Japanese so that I can slowly build up my confidence.
I'm going to write another letter to Subaru, but that's neither here nor there.
Next week I have my first ever voice acting gig.
The week after that I have the filming for that educational DVD which actually might turn out to be a one time thing. (Meaning I need to find more jobs.)
At the end of the month I have a photo shoot for some Ramen add.
I have no idea what I'm doing, really. These could all very well be one time things. I might not get jobs like this again for the rest of the year. But, for now, it feels good to be doing things I want to and actually GET PAID. It's definitely not a bad start to 2010! That's for sure! If anything, it's momentum to keep working hard and to just be patient. One day at a time. One step at a time. Things happen for a reason. I need to enjoy each day and just chill the fuck out.
And possibly get fucked. MY GOD I'm horny these days!!>__<
So tomorrow I'll go to the 100yen shop and although it's a little late I'll write my Kakizome for the year and then I'll hang them up on my wall. It's a nice little tradition I started after coming to Japan and I'm not planning to give it up.
Now I'm going to go paint my nails which I haven't done since the summer, before I entered my latest emo phase.
Then I'll possibly re-read the RP koneho and I finally finished after like, 10 years, and die of Subassan cute (or possibly just get a cavity).
Tomorrow there's dinner with art_house_queen to catch up and then clubbing with uchikins.
Right now I feel good and I'm going to enjoy it.
I'm not under any illusions that I'll feel this way the rest of the year. I know the next down wave will come. But that's ok. Because it's not what I'm experiencing now. I don't want to expect. I just want to experience.
So yeah.
Happy New Year guys!
Let's look forward to a bright future!
♥ and ∞
P.S. Um. Anyone know any good RyoYasu fic? That pairing needs to happen in my life like, yesterday.