Feb 13, 2005 01:54
"I Remember the lovely, lovely moment I used to spend with you- now my heart can hardly bend..."
I uh... have spent the night reading after a brief visit from Dave, Doyle and Katie. All were wonderful, and enjoyable. A movie was watched- I'm not scared.
The book I have been reading is one lent to me by dave.. and it is an amazing piece of work. I have fallen in love with it at the 30th page. Now opn the hubndreth, I cannot fully comprehend the fluidity of it as it skips through my mind. The characters and stories, the possibilities.
And now I sit down to lsiten to Fats domino, Barry McGuire, The Cars, The Police.. Moxy Fruvous (download Instanbul {not constantinople}).. and all manner of other musicians who seem to bring life to the seemingly inanimate world around me. "My heart would surely skip a beat"
And in this sort of.. drug and poison induced state, a world of merriment fills me, one that I would scare be able to describe but for long paragraphs that endlessly rambled and yet were never able to get to the point of it. Hwoever, I can get to the point of this post.
recently IO've come to dislike, and in some ways despise, the internet. However, sitting but not a moment ago I sat in a sort of wonder and decided that I had to post, if not jsut to mark the moment.
I have been searching, I suppose, for a sort of spirituality that I feel is now defunct in my life. But reading this book, which though deals with spirituality, religioin, etc. is not focvused on it in any real and appreciable way. But for some reason, perhaps the influence of alchohol, and the inifinty of music and thoguht I felt for one moment that which I seek.. and it gives me a sort of strength.
Thats all I had to say. I jsut thoguht it remarkable... I hope you all are well and doing well in yourvarious circumstances. I love you all.