One month at work
It's been around a month since I've been working at the company.
How do I feel? Okay. I've been insecure though as of late. You see, I'm a newbie here but being a newbie AND this kinda job feels...useless.
All I do is test...and now am working with a really stressful project that I feel doesn't need me. I'm also competitive since the other tester here who has been here longer than me makes me feel uncomfortable. It's more of that well...I feel the need to compete.
I want to show that I AM competent. The producer of my current project sorta puts a little more faith in him....which kinda makes me sad. Yeah I know am a newbie but I want to try.
I also envy the programmers and the 3D artists. I want to program again but I don't like the idea of spending 8 hours coding...and worse, debugging. I prefer pointing it out to them than fixing it myself. I haven't done much with C++.
I also feel left out with the designers, who are sort of my closest to friends in the company..and still feel left out. Oh damn it.
What I like about the company is that you don't really feel that much hierarchy. Even as high as the CEO helps out with the games, and even if their in the finance or business they still help out with the project. It's a nice feeling of everyone helping out. People seem nice...they treat me as if I've been there for a while. Hay.
I just hope I can get through this place without feeling like shit every now and then, you know?
How do I feel? Okay. I've been insecure though as of late. You see, I'm a newbie here but being a newbie AND this kinda job feels...useless.
All I do is test...and now am working with a really stressful project that I feel doesn't need me. I'm also competitive since the other tester here who has been here longer than me makes me feel uncomfortable. It's more of that well...I feel the need to compete.
I want to show that I AM competent. The producer of my current project sorta puts a little more faith in him....which kinda makes me sad. Yeah I know am a newbie but I want to try.
I also envy the programmers and the 3D artists. I want to program again but I don't like the idea of spending 8 hours coding...and worse, debugging. I prefer pointing it out to them than fixing it myself. I haven't done much with C++.
I also feel left out with the designers, who are sort of my closest to friends in the company..and still feel left out. Oh damn it.
What I like about the company is that you don't really feel that much hierarchy. Even as high as the CEO helps out with the games, and even if their in the finance or business they still help out with the project. It's a nice feeling of everyone helping out. People seem nice...they treat me as if I've been there for a while. Hay.
I just hope I can get through this place without feeling like shit every now and then, you know?