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i am emotionally deficient because my parents are. how do i not pass this on to my own children? maybe that's better answered by the fact that i lack a foundation for emotionally intimacy to ever sustain a relationship long enough for me to guarantee my progeny into the next generation. that is, in some ways comforting. and sad.
i don't know why that's "sad" except that i imagine it's something someone would say about it all. probably some girl who enjoys letting people know she's an avid supporter of some cause and she's got about 80 million buttons on her messenger bag she wants you to ask her about.
i'm tired of trying to get my parents to be enthusiastic about me. i just hate that i keep trying. i know better than to try and tell them about things i'm excited about and to expect them to share in how i feel. why am i so desperate for their validation? i know better, i've acknowledged that they are incapable of praise, why do i care? why am i compelled to act against my better judgment?
i'm just tired of them pissing on anything i care to mention because i want them to care.
i'm 26 for crissakes. what's the point.
i don't know why that's "sad" except that i imagine it's something someone would say about it all. probably some girl who enjoys letting people know she's an avid supporter of some cause and she's got about 80 million buttons on her messenger bag she wants you to ask her about.
i'm tired of trying to get my parents to be enthusiastic about me. i just hate that i keep trying. i know better than to try and tell them about things i'm excited about and to expect them to share in how i feel. why am i so desperate for their validation? i know better, i've acknowledged that they are incapable of praise, why do i care? why am i compelled to act against my better judgment?
i'm just tired of them pissing on anything i care to mention because i want them to care.
i'm 26 for crissakes. what's the point.