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I went to BAGLY yesterday, I don't really know why, and I hooked up with Eli, which was weird. A week ago my mom found a thing of cheap whisky in my drawer, and she took it, and she confronted me about it today and was like, "I want to be able to trust you and know that you won't do shit balh blah," (this was prompted by me lying about where I was last night), and it's kinda hard 'cause there's tons of shit that I can't just tell her straight up about. I think Daniel Gippetti likes me, which is weird, too. My computer has so many viruses, it sucks. I can't upload anything to the internet, which is a lot more inhibiting then you'd think. My itunes also doesn't open anymore. I talked to Allie for the first time in forever on Friday, which was kinda whoa-ish. It makes it so much harder. She's changed so much, but I still really love her, I think. It's getting really hard to deal with. From me talking to her, it made me never wanna drink again or smoke or anything, cause I told her how I got this pipe and bong thing when I was away and she was like, "Whoa, you've changed." I really don't think I have, but whatever. I want her to like me a lot again, even though she's crazy. I'm starting to really hate myself again, like I can't live with myself, when I think about I feel gross.
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