Explanation.
My last post may have confused a lot of people, so I suppose it needs this explanation.
Last night, I was in a very cranky mood, and really not in the mood to just break something, because I like all my stuff and i don't want to have to clean it. I also am opposed to just going out and randomly hurting someone or something. Now, I realize that last post may have alienated and angered some people who didn't understand. I am totally sympathetic to your confusion, and thus: explanation.
I've been in a really bad funk for a long time now, and a lot of IM conversations have led me to believe that being bitter, single, and lonely at school is probably at fault for a good bulk of it. Which is just a fancy way of saying that over the last year or so i've become a huge bitch.
Now, I'm asking you who read my LJ to bear with me. If you can't, well, you can always just not read my posts. They're important to me for getting out my feelings, thoughts, and inner workings. I realize that at the moment I'm a very angry person, akin to, oh, a highschooler (no offense to you who ARE highschoolers, it's just an expression) with a very small amount of social skills.
Please remember I didn't have a lot of social growth in highschool, and it was only in college that i actually acquired and lost a boyfriend. I feel that this has probably been the most growth i had in four years, and those of you expecting me to be bigger than this, I'm sorry, but i didn't get to be petty when i was younger. i'm trying really hard to get everything out as fast as i can, really, but it's hard and there's really only so much i can honestly do in a small space of time.
Once again, very sorry if i offended any of you with my last post, but let's face it here.
I'm bitter, and that's gonna make me a bitch. But on the plus side, I can be easily distracted by shiny objects, so... go to town.
Last night, I was in a very cranky mood, and really not in the mood to just break something, because I like all my stuff and i don't want to have to clean it. I also am opposed to just going out and randomly hurting someone or something. Now, I realize that last post may have alienated and angered some people who didn't understand. I am totally sympathetic to your confusion, and thus: explanation.
I've been in a really bad funk for a long time now, and a lot of IM conversations have led me to believe that being bitter, single, and lonely at school is probably at fault for a good bulk of it. Which is just a fancy way of saying that over the last year or so i've become a huge bitch.
Now, I'm asking you who read my LJ to bear with me. If you can't, well, you can always just not read my posts. They're important to me for getting out my feelings, thoughts, and inner workings. I realize that at the moment I'm a very angry person, akin to, oh, a highschooler (no offense to you who ARE highschoolers, it's just an expression) with a very small amount of social skills.
Please remember I didn't have a lot of social growth in highschool, and it was only in college that i actually acquired and lost a boyfriend. I feel that this has probably been the most growth i had in four years, and those of you expecting me to be bigger than this, I'm sorry, but i didn't get to be petty when i was younger. i'm trying really hard to get everything out as fast as i can, really, but it's hard and there's really only so much i can honestly do in a small space of time.
Once again, very sorry if i offended any of you with my last post, but let's face it here.
I'm bitter, and that's gonna make me a bitch. But on the plus side, I can be easily distracted by shiny objects, so... go to town.