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I am done. I want my car and I want to get away/ out of here. Work sucked ass today and I miss way too many people. I don't even feel like heading back to the Zoo, I mean everyone is busy there, doing their own thing, its beyond weird to not be there. It doesn't look like I'm going to be able to go back in the Winter so I'm starting to wonder if its really worth it anymore.
One of my best friends called me last night, really upset and its kinda affected me more than I want to admit. I hate it that I can't be there (in person) for him. One of my other friends is majorly depressed right now and everyone else either doesn't answer their phone, call me back, or they are too busy and I don't even bother.
I need someone to talk to, but not just anyone, I miss my friends. I want to change my major and I'm pretty sure what I want to do but it doesn't involve K which is both daunting and exciting. I miss K and I would miss it even more if I transfered butt I just don't feel like I can go there anymore.
I want to get a place of my own, work for a little while, take some courses around here and start anew in the fall. I can't take being at home anymore. its not anyone around me its just the fact that I'm here, again.
I want to have fun again, like hanging out with people kinda fun. but it doesn't look like thats going to happen for a while, I have to make money and save for a while before I can do much.
Why the FUCK didn't I work this summer? Why the FUCK did I let my mom convince me to not to work full time?
I hate this extension of the summer, it sucks. I want to be completely independent, but instead I'm just sitting here, writing this.
One of my best friends called me last night, really upset and its kinda affected me more than I want to admit. I hate it that I can't be there (in person) for him. One of my other friends is majorly depressed right now and everyone else either doesn't answer their phone, call me back, or they are too busy and I don't even bother.
I need someone to talk to, but not just anyone, I miss my friends. I want to change my major and I'm pretty sure what I want to do but it doesn't involve K which is both daunting and exciting. I miss K and I would miss it even more if I transfered butt I just don't feel like I can go there anymore.
I want to get a place of my own, work for a little while, take some courses around here and start anew in the fall. I can't take being at home anymore. its not anyone around me its just the fact that I'm here, again.
I want to have fun again, like hanging out with people kinda fun. but it doesn't look like thats going to happen for a while, I have to make money and save for a while before I can do much.
Why the FUCK didn't I work this summer? Why the FUCK did I let my mom convince me to not to work full time?
I hate this extension of the summer, it sucks. I want to be completely independent, but instead I'm just sitting here, writing this.