muh
(i am sorry for anything that i spelled wrong in advance, but i am hurrying to type this...)
Muh... today was not my best day ever. I was late to a class, but it was the first time i was late in like 3 years........ i fell off my bike and hurt myself, and broke my cd player in the process.....
I have also felt really lonely lately. I see all the cute cupels here, and i just wish to know how they felt... my love life is really sad and pathetic... all people that have gone out with me have been for these reasons:
They wanted something, (and were unwilling to do anything in return(i am not talking about just sex, but would not even hold my hand))
They were dared to do it
or my favorite....
They pittied me
muh.... it is really hard for me to start a friendship, let alone a conversation with a girl. All my life people have known how much of a looser i am and was. I was always alienated and austrasized. I was fat ugly and dumb. and no one would ever let me forget it. I have worked really hard to prove them wrong that i was not fat or dumb, and to a point it worked. but the taunts of being ugly followed me. it sunk in so much, i really think i am.
muh, to make a long story short, i am an optimist with self esteam problems.
back to my pint though, i do have one really big crush, but i am scared to do anything about it. I am pretty sure that she knows i have a crush on her, but i cant bring myself to do anything about it. to me, i think that she is beautiful. I think that her eyes sparkle like the stars of a midnight sky. her lips are as redder than any rose. her smile is so bright, that it can light even the darkness of any night. she smells just like a meadow, and the wind seams to always be rushing through her magnificent hair. muh, look at me now, i am just getting all mushhy......
Muh... today was not my best day ever. I was late to a class, but it was the first time i was late in like 3 years........ i fell off my bike and hurt myself, and broke my cd player in the process.....
I have also felt really lonely lately. I see all the cute cupels here, and i just wish to know how they felt... my love life is really sad and pathetic... all people that have gone out with me have been for these reasons:
They wanted something, (and were unwilling to do anything in return(i am not talking about just sex, but would not even hold my hand))
They were dared to do it
or my favorite....
They pittied me
muh.... it is really hard for me to start a friendship, let alone a conversation with a girl. All my life people have known how much of a looser i am and was. I was always alienated and austrasized. I was fat ugly and dumb. and no one would ever let me forget it. I have worked really hard to prove them wrong that i was not fat or dumb, and to a point it worked. but the taunts of being ugly followed me. it sunk in so much, i really think i am.
muh, to make a long story short, i am an optimist with self esteam problems.
back to my pint though, i do have one really big crush, but i am scared to do anything about it. I am pretty sure that she knows i have a crush on her, but i cant bring myself to do anything about it. to me, i think that she is beautiful. I think that her eyes sparkle like the stars of a midnight sky. her lips are as redder than any rose. her smile is so bright, that it can light even the darkness of any night. she smells just like a meadow, and the wind seams to always be rushing through her magnificent hair. muh, look at me now, i am just getting all mushhy......