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okay, here's the thing. i don't think the friendship should end entirely.. but i do think right now, we are basing the whole thing on the memories we have shared, as well as the previous friendships. i think we need some serious time apart, to reconnect with just ourselves, rather than to be two parts of a whole. i know personally that i feel like i am losing a huge part of just my sense of self, and maybe being seperated will help me find it.
like i said, i don't want this to end entirely.. we just need a serious break.
as for the other one, that's done with. i'm closing the book on that, i'm unmarking the page and sealing the letter shut for good. i don't want to have any part of it anymore, before there is too much emotional involvement.
i still want to see tiffany though .. and tasha. i rarely ever see them, and when i do, it's always a pleasure. i would like to keep my ties there, if at all possible.
and thus concludes (hopefully) my entries regarding this matter for a while. i am going to find my place, somewhere in this world, whether it be birmingham, montevallo, or somewhere else.. my puzzle piece must fit in somewhere.
[so i ended up hanging out with shamika and ryan tonight. it was definitely enjoyable, and it was good to get to hear ryan's side of the story. i do wish he didn't have to go through what he did, but sometimes i guess life hits you hard. i just hope he doesn't shut down and close off his emotions and his heart..like i have. i don't recommend that to anyone. but it was also good to have just a relaxing (somewhat, with chad there) night looking at books and cosmetics, just talking about anything and everything. i love being around those two. on a side (yet bad) note, my face appears to be drying up very quickly, to the point it hurts to move the skin. i am not sure what caused this, i'm afraid it has something to do with the new face wash i've been using. all i can do is try something different and hope it helps.. but right now, oh it hurts! and also, why is the cold mood icon sad? cold is great!]
like i said, i don't want this to end entirely.. we just need a serious break.
as for the other one, that's done with. i'm closing the book on that, i'm unmarking the page and sealing the letter shut for good. i don't want to have any part of it anymore, before there is too much emotional involvement.
i still want to see tiffany though .. and tasha. i rarely ever see them, and when i do, it's always a pleasure. i would like to keep my ties there, if at all possible.
and thus concludes (hopefully) my entries regarding this matter for a while. i am going to find my place, somewhere in this world, whether it be birmingham, montevallo, or somewhere else.. my puzzle piece must fit in somewhere.
[so i ended up hanging out with shamika and ryan tonight. it was definitely enjoyable, and it was good to get to hear ryan's side of the story. i do wish he didn't have to go through what he did, but sometimes i guess life hits you hard. i just hope he doesn't shut down and close off his emotions and his heart..like i have. i don't recommend that to anyone. but it was also good to have just a relaxing (somewhat, with chad there) night looking at books and cosmetics, just talking about anything and everything. i love being around those two. on a side (yet bad) note, my face appears to be drying up very quickly, to the point it hurts to move the skin. i am not sure what caused this, i'm afraid it has something to do with the new face wash i've been using. all i can do is try something different and hope it helps.. but right now, oh it hurts! and also, why is the cold mood icon sad? cold is great!]