Day 11: Journey
Journey; Junseung; G; 746
When: Sunday, Today
Where: My desk, school
I wiped the sweat off of my face and took a break. I don't think I can take any more of this.
“Ya! Junhyung, get up!” you yelled at me.
“I'm tired Hyunseung! We've been practicing since four in the morning! I think this break is well deserved. Besides, I can probably dance this in my sleep now that we've been doing this nonstop. Heck, everyone left an hour ago. Why are we still here?”
“Because Beast is going to be the best,” you paused as you took a few sips of water. You wiped the sweat that accumulated on your forehead and flashed me a smile, “And to be the best, we need to practice.”
And so the destination was set. I thought you would've asked why I was still there with you since I didn't have to be. 'Why didn't I just leave when everyone else did?', and 'Why was I complaining if it was my choice to stay in the first place?' were the questions I asked myself. But that didn't stay in my mind for too long. I was too busy forcing my exhausted body to move along to the beat of the music.
You were so set on getting there that for a moment I thought you lost yourself. Each day is just one more step closer and I feel that its going too fast. For you this is taking an eternity. And we're just getting the ticket.
“C'mon let's go home. Hyunseung, you're tired. Just call it a day, there's only about an hour of it left.”
"I'm not good enough yet,”
“Then when will you be 'good enough?'” I yelled in frustration.
"I-I don't know Junhyung," you said with a defeated sound in your voice as you avoided my eyes, "I don't know."
I learned many things from the short trip I had before. Many sacrifices will be made before you can even get on the train. But slowly and surely you'll get greater things in exchange as the train progresses. You may have lost your family's support at first but your fans will always believe in you. You may have lost all your friends but the strangers (and soon brothers) aboard with you will be with you through thick and thin. You may have lost the fun years of being a teenager but you'll find bits and pieces of yourself at every stop.
“Can you believe we're debuting next week?” you asked with such amazement that I could help but smile.
“Yes, yes I can.”
“Well obviously I can't! Six years I've been waiting for this!”
It shouldn't matter where we're going or how long it's going to take us there. You have to take in consideration that there are many other trains headed to that same place. But as I said, it shouldn't matter. It might take us a long time to get to the destination or we could be off it for good at the next stop. We don't know. So we should enjoy seeing the scenery and every signpost we pass by. Because if you think about it, the faster we get there, the quicker we'll have to leave.
“All this hair, make up, and costume thing is kinda annoying,” you whined as we prepared for our debut stage.
“Well you better get used to it,” I said as I adjusted the jacket I was wearing. I smoothed out the creases and looked up to see you smiling at me, “What?”
“The jacket, it looks good on you.”
We stand in front on the platform, the sliding doors before us. Soon those doors will open and we'll finally be on that train. My heart beat is getting faster as the seconds pass by. I've been on that train once before but it didn't take me very far. Is this the right station this time?
“Junhyung I'm really nervous,” you said as you squeezed my hand tighter.
“You think I'm not?”
“Well you've been nonchalant with everything else.”
“This is really it huh?”
“I should be the one asking that question.”
The space is vast and there's other passengers boarding with us but I only look at you. My doubts were erased when you look back at me with those eyes. I took another deep breath to calm down a bit. This time I won't have any regrets. No matter what is lost, no matter what happens, no matter how bumpy the ride is at first, I will have no regrets. After all, it is the journey that matters most.
A/N: Did some slight editing (4.5.11)
When: Sunday, Today
Where: My desk, school
I wiped the sweat off of my face and took a break. I don't think I can take any more of this.
“Ya! Junhyung, get up!” you yelled at me.
“I'm tired Hyunseung! We've been practicing since four in the morning! I think this break is well deserved. Besides, I can probably dance this in my sleep now that we've been doing this nonstop. Heck, everyone left an hour ago. Why are we still here?”
“Because Beast is going to be the best,” you paused as you took a few sips of water. You wiped the sweat that accumulated on your forehead and flashed me a smile, “And to be the best, we need to practice.”
And so the destination was set. I thought you would've asked why I was still there with you since I didn't have to be. 'Why didn't I just leave when everyone else did?', and 'Why was I complaining if it was my choice to stay in the first place?' were the questions I asked myself. But that didn't stay in my mind for too long. I was too busy forcing my exhausted body to move along to the beat of the music.
You were so set on getting there that for a moment I thought you lost yourself. Each day is just one more step closer and I feel that its going too fast. For you this is taking an eternity. And we're just getting the ticket.
“C'mon let's go home. Hyunseung, you're tired. Just call it a day, there's only about an hour of it left.”
"I'm not good enough yet,”
“Then when will you be 'good enough?'” I yelled in frustration.
"I-I don't know Junhyung," you said with a defeated sound in your voice as you avoided my eyes, "I don't know."
I learned many things from the short trip I had before. Many sacrifices will be made before you can even get on the train. But slowly and surely you'll get greater things in exchange as the train progresses. You may have lost your family's support at first but your fans will always believe in you. You may have lost all your friends but the strangers (and soon brothers) aboard with you will be with you through thick and thin. You may have lost the fun years of being a teenager but you'll find bits and pieces of yourself at every stop.
“Can you believe we're debuting next week?” you asked with such amazement that I could help but smile.
“Yes, yes I can.”
“Well obviously I can't! Six years I've been waiting for this!”
It shouldn't matter where we're going or how long it's going to take us there. You have to take in consideration that there are many other trains headed to that same place. But as I said, it shouldn't matter. It might take us a long time to get to the destination or we could be off it for good at the next stop. We don't know. So we should enjoy seeing the scenery and every signpost we pass by. Because if you think about it, the faster we get there, the quicker we'll have to leave.
“All this hair, make up, and costume thing is kinda annoying,” you whined as we prepared for our debut stage.
“Well you better get used to it,” I said as I adjusted the jacket I was wearing. I smoothed out the creases and looked up to see you smiling at me, “What?”
“The jacket, it looks good on you.”
We stand in front on the platform, the sliding doors before us. Soon those doors will open and we'll finally be on that train. My heart beat is getting faster as the seconds pass by. I've been on that train once before but it didn't take me very far. Is this the right station this time?
“Junhyung I'm really nervous,” you said as you squeezed my hand tighter.
“You think I'm not?”
“Well you've been nonchalant with everything else.”
“This is really it huh?”
“I should be the one asking that question.”
The space is vast and there's other passengers boarding with us but I only look at you. My doubts were erased when you look back at me with those eyes. I took another deep breath to calm down a bit. This time I won't have any regrets. No matter what is lost, no matter what happens, no matter how bumpy the ride is at first, I will have no regrets. After all, it is the journey that matters most.
A/N: Did some slight editing (4.5.11)