Climbing up the walls..
Does it make sense to say that I feel as though I can't think in a straight line right now? I'm not sure since I'm not thinking in a straight line.
I am having crooked half thoughts as well as bursts of baseless stress. Every so often throughout my day (for this past week) I get this dreadful feeling like I'll never get anything done. I start to think about how I need to finish homework that doesn't exist. How I need to work on photo shoots I haven't been assigned. I'm sure that I will disappoint my teachers by not being prepared for things I haven't been told to do. It makes me shiver and my whole body gets clammy. My stomach tosses and turns, and then I worry and worry until I remember that there isn't anything I have to do at all.
Despite this, I had a lovely day today. Meghan and I hid in her room from people who will go their whole life feeling without ever really feeling. I got to be her passenger for the first time ever and she drove us to the dollar store. We purchased 5 boxes of heartburn medication and a damaged candle to burn for Sara while signing the alphabet.
And now I would like to read forever, please and thank you.
I am having crooked half thoughts as well as bursts of baseless stress. Every so often throughout my day (for this past week) I get this dreadful feeling like I'll never get anything done. I start to think about how I need to finish homework that doesn't exist. How I need to work on photo shoots I haven't been assigned. I'm sure that I will disappoint my teachers by not being prepared for things I haven't been told to do. It makes me shiver and my whole body gets clammy. My stomach tosses and turns, and then I worry and worry until I remember that there isn't anything I have to do at all.
Despite this, I had a lovely day today. Meghan and I hid in her room from people who will go their whole life feeling without ever really feeling. I got to be her passenger for the first time ever and she drove us to the dollar store. We purchased 5 boxes of heartburn medication and a damaged candle to burn for Sara while signing the alphabet.
And now I would like to read forever, please and thank you.