Men in Banana Suits
I guess I'll never understand guys all the way because i'm obviously not one, but I do enjoy hanging out with them sometimes. Getting to know them a little more can be fun, especially when you're with the right ones. And I understand that I'm fairly new to the whole Guy thing because...well... i never was one of the "in" people in grade school, which set me up for failure in my later years (ha, I talk like I'm so old, when I'm only 15) but now that I'm in High School, having a relationship with a guy is like having a million bucks. You can do anything you want, meet new people even higher than you in the school rankings. But for me... I'm still at square one. I think making a friendship with dansem was good... I guess. I suppose it was fate but now I'm sounding all spiritual and stuff. But I didn't even know his name until I just happened to be telling Hannah about Otakon and he knew what I was talking about. He had just moved to the area... I don't know when so to him, he had no clue about who I was or how low I'd been in elementry school because He'd never met me. He'd never even heard of my name. Luck sometimes does that...
But now I feel like I'm back at square one again. he keeps hinting towards the fact that there's some other girl in his life. Not that I care because we were never going out in the first place (which is also a problem since I've never gone out with a guy before... or anyone for that matter *sweatdrop) but now he won't talk to me... and he seems a little more agressive. I don't know. Maybe it's all that mothering I had as a child and I never learned to walk on my own feet. I hate myself for that. Should I try to be more in the "in" crowd or would I be laughed at for even trying.
I've dug my own grave, might as well go take a nap in it for a while and maybe thigns'll clear out of my ever so-confused mind...
But now I feel like I'm back at square one again. he keeps hinting towards the fact that there's some other girl in his life. Not that I care because we were never going out in the first place (which is also a problem since I've never gone out with a guy before... or anyone for that matter *sweatdrop) but now he won't talk to me... and he seems a little more agressive. I don't know. Maybe it's all that mothering I had as a child and I never learned to walk on my own feet. I hate myself for that. Should I try to be more in the "in" crowd or would I be laughed at for even trying.
I've dug my own grave, might as well go take a nap in it for a while and maybe thigns'll clear out of my ever so-confused mind...