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Why can't I stop thinking about him, Why does it hurt so much. Why can't I block him out. What is the world coming to? Why hasn't my heart healed yet. Did he really have that big of an impact on me? Will I ever stop having feelings for him. When will I be ready for a new relationship? This new man in my life, am I ready to love him yet? Can he help me to heal that ache that no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to rid myself of? So many questions that I don't know the answers to...
I care a lot for Tyler, he was there for me when no one else was. Out of everyone, he was the one that helped me most when I needed it. Now he's falling for me. As for myself, I like him a lot. He's like that other certain someone, only better. He has the same ideas about relationships that I do. He's clingy, just like me, and I know I need someone like that. I know that he's falling for me ever so quickly and yes, I'm beginning to fall for him to, yet not at the same rate as him. My heart hasn't quite fully healed yet. Yes, the relationship was short, but it made such an impact. Even in such a short span of time, someone can easily make an impact on your life.
I would love a relationship with Tyler. But can I give myself to him fully like one should in a relationship, not all at once of course but over time. The way I feel now, I think I need just a little more time. Who knows, after I spend more time with him that feeling might change. But as of right now, I truly believe I'm not quite ready yet. I still need a little more time to give my heart what it needs to fully repair itself so that I can have the best relationship possible with Tyler.
I thought that it was great that I had someone that cares for me so much. But I realize now that I may end up rushing into it a little. I need to give myself more time before I commit to another relationship. I care about Tyler so much, but there is still that small piece of my heart that has not let go of my previous relationship yet. My heart needs a little more time now that I really look at the reality of the situation. Then again, who knows. I'll get to spend more time with Tyler this week and I may realize that maybe I am ready. But I won't know until I spend a bit more time with him. Which, truthfully, I can't wait to do. He's such a caring person and unlike any guy I have ever met. A true hopeless romantic.
To those of you that know Tyler, do not go behind my back and tell him about this entry. I will talk about it with him, in person, when he comes to visit me on Tuesday. I will let him know what I'm thinking right now and how I feel. The fact that I need to slow it down for a little while. But I still can't wait to see him. ^^
I care a lot for Tyler, he was there for me when no one else was. Out of everyone, he was the one that helped me most when I needed it. Now he's falling for me. As for myself, I like him a lot. He's like that other certain someone, only better. He has the same ideas about relationships that I do. He's clingy, just like me, and I know I need someone like that. I know that he's falling for me ever so quickly and yes, I'm beginning to fall for him to, yet not at the same rate as him. My heart hasn't quite fully healed yet. Yes, the relationship was short, but it made such an impact. Even in such a short span of time, someone can easily make an impact on your life.
I would love a relationship with Tyler. But can I give myself to him fully like one should in a relationship, not all at once of course but over time. The way I feel now, I think I need just a little more time. Who knows, after I spend more time with him that feeling might change. But as of right now, I truly believe I'm not quite ready yet. I still need a little more time to give my heart what it needs to fully repair itself so that I can have the best relationship possible with Tyler.
I thought that it was great that I had someone that cares for me so much. But I realize now that I may end up rushing into it a little. I need to give myself more time before I commit to another relationship. I care about Tyler so much, but there is still that small piece of my heart that has not let go of my previous relationship yet. My heart needs a little more time now that I really look at the reality of the situation. Then again, who knows. I'll get to spend more time with Tyler this week and I may realize that maybe I am ready. But I won't know until I spend a bit more time with him. Which, truthfully, I can't wait to do. He's such a caring person and unlike any guy I have ever met. A true hopeless romantic.
To those of you that know Tyler, do not go behind my back and tell him about this entry. I will talk about it with him, in person, when he comes to visit me on Tuesday. I will let him know what I'm thinking right now and how I feel. The fact that I need to slow it down for a little while. But I still can't wait to see him. ^^