so bored X_x
I'm so fucking bored... I really wanna watch one of my X DVD's but alas Fred has not given them back yet. Dammit, why do I lend all my anime out anyway? Half of it comes back scratched as hell *frowns* I need to stop being so nice, it's 10:40 and still my mother isn't home! She never stays out this late, add to the fact she's drinking...
Dad and I had a fight tonight, I threatened to leave again. I was out the door and starting down the drive way when he came out and did the whole "come back in here so we can talk". So I did, I screamed at him for a little while, he said we would talk to my Mother, Igot pissed and walked away. Then the bad things came, he hit me and I kicked him in the nuts and told him if he ever hit me again I would kill him. I know he didn't mean too, I could see it in his eyes, but I still got pissed... All I can do is sit here and hope for terrible things... is it wrong for me to hope my Mother never comes home? I'm a horrible selfish person I know... but is it so much to ask just for her to leave, I dun mean die but maybe just to leave. I know Dad would be happier... and so would I...
I dun know, I'm having stomach pains... owwie... I should eat something but I wont... it hurts -.-; Oh and my GF wont be online till next month, I'm sad but I have phonecards!! :D *has over 700 minutes* >.>; e.e I'll miss her but you know the saying "absence makes the heart grow fonder". *squeels and bounces* I can't wait till I get my car! >
Dad and I had a fight tonight, I threatened to leave again. I was out the door and starting down the drive way when he came out and did the whole "come back in here so we can talk". So I did, I screamed at him for a little while, he said we would talk to my Mother, Igot pissed and walked away. Then the bad things came, he hit me and I kicked him in the nuts and told him if he ever hit me again I would kill him. I know he didn't mean too, I could see it in his eyes, but I still got pissed... All I can do is sit here and hope for terrible things... is it wrong for me to hope my Mother never comes home? I'm a horrible selfish person I know... but is it so much to ask just for her to leave, I dun mean die but maybe just to leave. I know Dad would be happier... and so would I...
I dun know, I'm having stomach pains... owwie... I should eat something but I wont... it hurts -.-; Oh and my GF wont be online till next month, I'm sad but I have phonecards!! :D *has over 700 minutes* >.>; e.e I'll miss her but you know the saying "absence makes the heart grow fonder". *squeels and bounces* I can't wait till I get my car! >