i don't care who knows...
I've not been feeling well lately, physically, mentally, emotionally. i just haven't been feeling well.
-my dad left and i still cried the same day, but not about him, about something else.
-some things i'm disappointed about are that i can't go see phantom of the opera this friday or saturday.
-my phone is messed up so i can't call becca
-i found out that zack told kenpokitsune "I know it's still too soon, but I've been thinking a
lot and I think maybe I love you" while we were still going out, a week after the cruise and he didn't deny that he said it to me. "maybe" i said it is what he said. "I'm worried if we don't talk you're gonna stop loving me." ...these were all words he told her while we were still going out. And he says he didn't mean that he actually loved her, but she could have interpreted it like that for sure.
-to the person who let me find this out, i don't think you deserve to live right now. at all. i think you are in dire need of help. but bottom line is, this wouldn't hurt so much if all these things were true. had zack not said these things, i wouldn't be hurt. but he did. and i don't know what to think. except that he's going to hang out with people on saturday and that would have been our eleventh month anniversary.
this is why i am not going to be on lj very often. cause it doesn't give me any good memories anymore.
am i ok?
no.
so leave me alone.
-my dad left and i still cried the same day, but not about him, about something else.
-some things i'm disappointed about are that i can't go see phantom of the opera this friday or saturday.
-my phone is messed up so i can't call becca
-i found out that zack told kenpokitsune "I know it's still too soon, but I've been thinking a
lot and I think maybe I love you" while we were still going out, a week after the cruise and he didn't deny that he said it to me. "maybe" i said it is what he said. "I'm worried if we don't talk you're gonna stop loving me." ...these were all words he told her while we were still going out. And he says he didn't mean that he actually loved her, but she could have interpreted it like that for sure.
-to the person who let me find this out, i don't think you deserve to live right now. at all. i think you are in dire need of help. but bottom line is, this wouldn't hurt so much if all these things were true. had zack not said these things, i wouldn't be hurt. but he did. and i don't know what to think. except that he's going to hang out with people on saturday and that would have been our eleventh month anniversary.
this is why i am not going to be on lj very often. cause it doesn't give me any good memories anymore.
am i ok?
no.
so leave me alone.