Name: ari
【 About Yourself... 】
Please describe your personality:
ENFP
zany charm, typically very bright and full of potential, demonstrative and spontaneous, able to inspire and motivate others, can talk their way in or out of anything, tend towards procrastination and dislike performing small and uninteresting tasks.
enfps have an unusually broad range of skills and talents. they are good at most things which interest them. project-oriented, they may go through several different careers during their lifetime. to onlookers, the enfp may seem directionless and without purpose, but they are actually quite consistent, in that they have a strong sense of values which they live with throughout their lives. they want to be liked and admired by other people.
they are easily intrigued and distracted by new friends and acquaintances, forgetting their older and more familiar emotional ties for long stretches at a time. and the less mature enfp may need to feel they’re the constant center of attention, to confirm their image of themselves as a fascinating person.
see also: enneagram type 4 (the individualist) or rather, the flaws of type 4s (because those are spot on)
self-aware & creative, ironic view of self and life (can be serious and funny, vulnerable and emotionally strong), moody and self-conscious. will sometimes withhold themselves from others due to feeling vulnerable and defective, they can also feel disdainful and exempt from ordinary ways of living. has problems with melancholy, self-indulgence, self-pity. fears that they have no identity or personal significance, and to find that significance is their great desire. 4s typically have problems with a negative self-image and chronically low self-esteem. will sometimes internalize everything, taking everything personally and become self-absorbed and introverted, moody and hypersensitive, shy and self-conscious.
chaotic neutral
a chaotic neutral character follows his whims. he is an individualist first and last. such characters have been known to cheerfully and for no apparent purpose gamble away everything they have on the roll of a single die. they are almost totally unreliable. chaotic neutral characters like to indulge in everything. this is the insurgent, the con-man, gambler, and high roller; the uncommitted freebooter seeking nothing more than self-gratification. this type of character will at least consider doing anything if they can find enjoyment or amusement. life has meaning, but theirs has the greatest meaning. according to chaotic neutrals, laws and rules infringe on personal freedom and were meant to be broken. this character is always looking for the best deal, and will work with good, neutral, or evil to get it; as long as he comes out of the situation on top.
they tend to believe in luck and chance, rather than fate or destiny. they don't care what happens to others, yet will not necessarily go out of their way to harm others. if someone stands in the way of their happiness, they may kill that individual or move on to something else. their priorities tend to change as they experience new things in life. they may even appear to adhere to another alignment for some length of time, only to switch at an inappropriate moment. they can be the worst tricksters, conning people, not for gain, but for sheer amusement. the chaotic neutral may not be driven by fame or wealth, but may only take actions just to see what happens. a chaotic neutral character will keep his word if it serves his interests. he may attack an unarmed foe if he feels it necessary. he will not kill, but may harm an innocent. he may use torture to extract information, but never for pleasure. he may kill for pleasure, but is not likely to do so.
Positive traits:
√ comfortable with all of my various eccentricities and geekiness. i've got a good memory for facts/trivia/references/etc & am constantly pouring over books. if something interests me, i am all over it, absorbing everything & soaking up the knowledge, coming across as borderline obsessive. very technologically savvy (my parents like having their own private tech support).
√ organized (to the point of where it might seem obsessive-compulsive), persnickety, more detailed oriented
√ insightful & good at reading people. i'm also the advice friend even if i don't always follow my own; friendly and the designated shoulder to cry on (even though it makes me terribly uncomfortable lol somehow i am the comforter, who will also punch a motherfucker in the throat for a friend).
√ great sense of humor & ace at making people laugh. sometimes it's at inappropriate times, but hey, good comedic timing is good comedic timing. and i realize it's about half and half, people laugh with me just as much as people laugh at me. i have no problem lightening the mood, defusing any tension, or drawing the attention away from anything.
Negative traits:
✖ i'm narcissistic. sometimes i'm careless with other people (sometimes i go out of my way to be a dick or i'm too sarcastic at inappropriate times or i'm just too self-involved).
✖ i am possibly the most passive-aggressive person you will ever meet. yes i've gotten better at controlling my temper but still, my bouts of red mists should be feared and handled with care.
✖ too competitive and yes, okay, i turn into kind of an asshole. right from the start i will suss out my biggest competitor and set my sights on that person. i'm a sore loser and sometimes it seems like my happiness and the amount of fun i have depends on winning, on being better at something than other people. i'm actually a lot more insecure than i let on, it's like i have an almost desperate need to be acknowledge for who i am and what i have/will accomplish. lol my self worth issues are definitely tied to my competitive spirit + my (perceived) success/failures.
✖ intelligent but i either don't use it to my full potential or i use it for things i shouldn't; if it's something that doesn't matter as much to me/bores me/something i'm not good at, then i don't really try my hardest with it. i say 'fuck it' way too often and i'm unmotivated a lot of the times. i tend to jump from one thing to the next without really committing to or finishing anything.
Please list some of your dislikes:
ignorance/prejudice/discrimination/hate/-isms, any and all trust exercises, wet socks and the sounds they make, pizza that has more sauce than cheese, florescent lighting, bad roommates, onions, humidity, underwater caves, earth worms, favoritism, love confessions, cheap lighters, folks sans zombie survival plan, people singing happy birthday to me, babies anywhere near me, apple pie, too much silence
What is the first impression that you give others?:
aloof & caustic & intimidating whoops
How are you described by those who know you?:
witty & hilarious, enthusiastic & garrulous to a fault, neurotic and can be socially awkward at times, temperamental & passive-aggressive, super competitive, has way too much pop culture knowledge & some premium dance moves.
【 Are you more... 】
A realist, an idealist, an optimist or a pessimist:
cautiously optimistic, i'm hoping for the best but not expecting it. so uh more realistic, i guess?
Cautious or Impulsive:
i like time to suss things out, think them over, etc but tbh i have a habit of being much more impulsive when i'm goaded/manipulated in action (due to my anger-impulse or competitiveness) or when i'm with certain friends. i am easily friendship enabled. sometimes i'll throw caution to the wind and just jump right in. i have the embarrassing stories and scars to prove it.
Calm or Hyper:
i definitely have energy to spare. i'm the person who, when forced to sit still, is a habitual pen-clicker/phone-checker/restless leg mover. when i'm energetic and excited/enthusiastic? yeah have fun with that.
Trusting or Cynical:
definitely more cynical. you gotta break through my tough pokemon outer shell.
Leader or Follower:
i'm comfortable being a leader with people i know and i'm used to, if i know the dynamics and have experience with the group, i haven't a problem taking charge. ask anyone and they'll tell you it's probably better if i'm not actually in charge, especially with people who don't know me/aren't used to my way of doing things. as i've gotten older, i've gotten better at dealing with the people aspect of it. i'm more friendly and encouraging and uh, nice. mostly. sometimes.
Introverted or Extroverted:
BOTH lol let me explain. at first glance, i'm a little standoffish. i prefer to hang back and observe first, get a feel for people before making that social splash. and really, it's only when i have something to "hide" behind, a book or headphones, something that makes it so i don't have to be with others, that i'll let myself be as antisocial as i want to be. (i don't actually realize i'm doing it lol but it's been brought to my attention that when i'm in one of my aloof moods, i tend to bitchface at everyone.)
i don't necessarily like meeting new people, or rather, i hate the awkward chitchat that happens when you meet someone and they obviously are more interested in getting to know me than i am them. when i need to be, i can be very charming and approaching when i put in the effort or when i actually want to meet new people, but if not? i can be really off putting. it's best to let me come to you and not the other way around. catch my interest or give me a reason to want to get to know you. let me put out the friendly welcoming mat first. you have to give me a reason not to immediately dislike you and write you off.
once i get to know people and friendships are made, it's a completely different story and the aloof person i was at first is hardly ever remembered. ask any of my friends and they'll tell you how friendly/exuberant/boisterous i am. it's a comfort level thing, the more comfortable and happy i am, the more extroverted i am.
Independent or Dependent:
i feel like i used to be quite dependent so i guess now i try to overcompensate for that by being super independent. i don't like asking for help or having to rely on someone else when i feel should be able to handle things on my own.
Persistent or Laid-Back:
both in different (super annoying) ways. i tend to be more laid back about things that need to be done (i am the worst kind of procrastinator); on the other hand, if i know i'm right and you're wrong i will ~persist~ in proving that point to you and anyone else willing to listen or i can force to listen to me.
Confident or Modest:
can i describe myself as an insecure narcissist and leave it at that?
【 General Questions... 】
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
one thing? how about a handful of things. take your pick, any of the following, etc etc. how unmotivated i am/my tendency to quit things. how desperate i can be for acknowledgement. how careless i can be with other people. my tendency to cut & run or push other people away.
Do you enjoy conflict or do you seek to end it as soon as you can?
it depends on what kind and how personal it is. i like arguing for the sake of arguing, i like when things get too competitive, i like stirring shit up and watching what happens. but in terms of confrontations yeah it depends on if i'm doing the confronting or if I'm being confronted (and whether i feel like i'm being attacked verbally/emotionally).
if i need to confront someone, i'll bide my time, make sure i'm clearheaded with my emotions under control and i'll come up with a game plan. i like planning out what i need to say and have retorts and arguments ready if i need them. if I'm being confronted, especially if i'm blindsided by it, i usually get either defensive or if i feel like i'm being attacked i'll either shut down emotionally and try to hightail it out of there if that's the easiest way. sometimes i've become manipulative and hurtful, i've maybe guilt tripped or even cried if i feel like it'll help me win. because yes, it boils down to me seeing a confrontation as a situation to win or lose, and i hate losing.
Someone just cut in front of you in the store, when you've already been waiting for quite some time. How do you react?
rudely, probably. and then i will spend the rest of the day telling people about it and complaining and annoying everyone.
Imagine yourself fighting in order to save the world, or to put an end to it depending on your ideals. What motivates you to fight? Would it be for the sake of the world, just because you felt like helping out, for a specific desire, for yourself?
when it comes down to it honestly everything i do is probably more selfish than anything else. i have people important to me, that i care about and would fight for, but even if there's a moment where it seems like i'm doing something for someone else, there's always a tiny part that is motivated by a self-serving reason. i choose myself first before anything else, i am the ground floor of my hierarchy of needs, then come my important people, then maybe further up because it's the right thing to do.
Speaking of fighting, would you play the offensive, defensive or supportive role?
defensive, at first. i'd rather let my opposition make the first couple of moves, let me get a feel of how they operate, suss out any weaknesses i can, let them start to tire themselves out before i turn the tide. once i go on the offensive there's really no coming back from that. it's on, shit just got real.
You've come across a powerful enemy, but are already aware you won't acquire anything tangible by beating it. Do you fight it anyway?
well i'm not good at letting those kind of challenges pass me by but of course if i have other things/plans that need my attention immediately i will go with my priorities. probably.
【 Optional 】
Are there any characters you would prefer not to be voted as?
nope. thanks for taking the time to read through my app ♥
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