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Things I though would be harder than they were; moving house and cutting my hair. Actually moving house was a lot harder practically than I thought it would be but a lot easier emotionally.
I'm in a weird place right now where I'm gazing into the mouth of doom so often that things that would have previously knocked me down crying just don't have any effect. I already had the worst year of my life, lost my soulmate, gained nothing but weight, fuck it. I could skydive with a parachute attached to my nipple rings at this point and not be particularly enlivened by it.
That's sort of freeing, I have very little left to lose and so the fear is..different.
I'm in a weird place right now where I'm gazing into the mouth of doom so often that things that would have previously knocked me down crying just don't have any effect. I already had the worst year of my life, lost my soulmate, gained nothing but weight, fuck it. I could skydive with a parachute attached to my nipple rings at this point and not be particularly enlivened by it.
That's sort of freeing, I have very little left to lose and so the fear is..different.