its been like 500 years i
If only grad school wasnt taking up so much of my time....
I would be sleeping right now but I can't.... I'm too upset/stressed/angry for some reason....
I'm drinking wine (which is calming) took a hot shower... smoked a few cigarettes (which I havent really been doing) and nothing is helping...
I don't know what my problem is I just feel hopeless almost....
All my time during the week is spent doing work... and then the weekend comes and HEY I realize I have no money, so I can't even go out and do anything...
It's like a constant stay at home in Ware... it's depressing... I have nothing out here except for Dan and even I need a break from that sometimes. Don't get me wrong we have come a LONG way since summer and I love him to death, but being around him all the time isn't healthy. I take everything out on him without meaning to and I hate it.The shitty part is he doesn't know what to do when I'm walking around the house pissed and crying with no reason or excuse besides "I just AM" which some of you WPI kids know...
I just couldnt ask for someone better because his support is there you know?
The good thing is I don't have class tomorrow so I'm going to get a jump on next week's work. Finish the project that is due in 2 weeks... not this monday but next (fuck its 5 pages thats nothing) start on the exam thats due tuesday... when i get bored with that work on weds and thurs work... which is jus a few HW probs for weds and reviewing everyones projects for thurs...
I think I might just be sick of the same ol routine.... wake up, do HW, class, do more homework, sleep... you know with the eating and showering and driving in there... it gets so... i don't even know the word... BORING
fuck
and sad
I'm really glad I'm going to do this GIP thing... graduate internship program... no worries about whatever
job in jan for one year
the only thing that worries me is i worry too much
funny huh?
on that note i just finished this bottle of wine (WTF I've been good with the drinking past few days not so much) and want a cigarette (also not good and have been good) so im going to go do that...
<3
I would be sleeping right now but I can't.... I'm too upset/stressed/angry for some reason....
I'm drinking wine (which is calming) took a hot shower... smoked a few cigarettes (which I havent really been doing) and nothing is helping...
I don't know what my problem is I just feel hopeless almost....
All my time during the week is spent doing work... and then the weekend comes and HEY I realize I have no money, so I can't even go out and do anything...
It's like a constant stay at home in Ware... it's depressing... I have nothing out here except for Dan and even I need a break from that sometimes. Don't get me wrong we have come a LONG way since summer and I love him to death, but being around him all the time isn't healthy. I take everything out on him without meaning to and I hate it.The shitty part is he doesn't know what to do when I'm walking around the house pissed and crying with no reason or excuse besides "I just AM" which some of you WPI kids know...
I just couldnt ask for someone better because his support is there you know?
The good thing is I don't have class tomorrow so I'm going to get a jump on next week's work. Finish the project that is due in 2 weeks... not this monday but next (fuck its 5 pages thats nothing) start on the exam thats due tuesday... when i get bored with that work on weds and thurs work... which is jus a few HW probs for weds and reviewing everyones projects for thurs...
I think I might just be sick of the same ol routine.... wake up, do HW, class, do more homework, sleep... you know with the eating and showering and driving in there... it gets so... i don't even know the word... BORING
fuck
and sad
I'm really glad I'm going to do this GIP thing... graduate internship program... no worries about whatever
job in jan for one year
the only thing that worries me is i worry too much
funny huh?
on that note i just finished this bottle of wine (WTF I've been good with the drinking past few days not so much) and want a cigarette (also not good and have been good) so im going to go do that...
<3