i can see clearly now the rain is gone
i think i can make it now, the pain is gone
all of the bad feelings have disappeared
it's gonna be a bright sunshiny day
=)
i've eliminated so much and so many from my life that it seems almost depressing, but honestly, everything is so much clearer now. when your "true" friends are put to the test, to be there when you need them most, and they fail miserably... it all becomes so vividly clear. fuck em. if your best friend doesn't have the time to call you on your birthday or talk to you when your heart is aching so bad that you cannot stop sobbing.. it's clear. when one of your best friends would sacrifice all of your happiness to cover up a tiny little mistake they made and a lie that they told.. it's clear. when you make the time of day for all of your friends but suddenly realize that they have not ever made one second for you.. well, you know.
people like that put the message into our hearts that we are not worth their time.. and that eventually bends our minds into feeling that we aren't good enough in general. it's all about how long we allow it though. i choose to no longer allow it. i am worth so much more.
shane is so amazing. there is no doubt with us. there is no question. he has helped me realize a lot about myself. i am so grateful for that. his family is incredible and i'm so happy to be a part of it. they love unconditionally, and that is something that i could never even comprehend before i met him and them. God has truly blessed me by placing them in my life.
i've learned a lot about what real friends are these past few months. james, morgan, mike, justin, tony, bekkah.. they're all amazing. when they say they have your back.. they mean it. it's a wonderful thing to be a part of. they have all been right in front of me for so long too.. i just didn't open my eyes or arms.
it was very sad to realize that the people who i thought were so close to me were not.. it hurt more i can explain. i very rarely get to the point where i have no more tears to cry, but i did. it was only two girls, but they hurt me so much. i already forgave them. i couldn't live with myself if i didn't. but i will never again make that mistake with them. i just hope they realize what they have done and work on being more true to the people who matter the most, because when they need it the most.. they will be right there to back them up. but if they're not.. karma's a bitch.
well that's all for tonight.
XOXO annie
all of the bad feelings have disappeared
it's gonna be a bright sunshiny day
=)
i've eliminated so much and so many from my life that it seems almost depressing, but honestly, everything is so much clearer now. when your "true" friends are put to the test, to be there when you need them most, and they fail miserably... it all becomes so vividly clear. fuck em. if your best friend doesn't have the time to call you on your birthday or talk to you when your heart is aching so bad that you cannot stop sobbing.. it's clear. when one of your best friends would sacrifice all of your happiness to cover up a tiny little mistake they made and a lie that they told.. it's clear. when you make the time of day for all of your friends but suddenly realize that they have not ever made one second for you.. well, you know.
people like that put the message into our hearts that we are not worth their time.. and that eventually bends our minds into feeling that we aren't good enough in general. it's all about how long we allow it though. i choose to no longer allow it. i am worth so much more.
shane is so amazing. there is no doubt with us. there is no question. he has helped me realize a lot about myself. i am so grateful for that. his family is incredible and i'm so happy to be a part of it. they love unconditionally, and that is something that i could never even comprehend before i met him and them. God has truly blessed me by placing them in my life.
i've learned a lot about what real friends are these past few months. james, morgan, mike, justin, tony, bekkah.. they're all amazing. when they say they have your back.. they mean it. it's a wonderful thing to be a part of. they have all been right in front of me for so long too.. i just didn't open my eyes or arms.
it was very sad to realize that the people who i thought were so close to me were not.. it hurt more i can explain. i very rarely get to the point where i have no more tears to cry, but i did. it was only two girls, but they hurt me so much. i already forgave them. i couldn't live with myself if i didn't. but i will never again make that mistake with them. i just hope they realize what they have done and work on being more true to the people who matter the most, because when they need it the most.. they will be right there to back them up. but if they're not.. karma's a bitch.
well that's all for tonight.
XOXO annie