all my life
=)
miss me?
prolly not. but that's okay, i'll still update.
i'm happy. =)
chris and i aren't together anymore. so if you read my last one.. no it didn't fix anything for us. but it still worked out nicely for me i guess. maybe that makes me a horrible person. maybe that makes me a heartbreaking bitch. but regardless of how it appears, i really did not mean to hurt him. i hope it did what i wanted it to, i hope it made him more independent and happy. and i really hope him and i can be friends soon. i'd like that a lot.
shane and i have a certain closeness that i've never had with anyone. a complete understanding of eachother without even having to try. i love that. not that i didn't love chris. i did. i always will. but there's a difference between loving someone and being in love with them. i'm happy to have discovered that difference.
i miss my friends. a whole lot. what makes me even more sad tho, is that i gave out my number to a lot of them and they never called me. in the past two months i've been living at this house, i have called my friends several times to hang out, but none of them have called me. makes me kinda wonder. when they say everyone changes after you graduate, they're not fucking kidding. i don't know anyone anymore. sometimes i don't know who i am.. but self realization comes in time. so i'll just enjoy myself for now. =) ignorance is bliss? we'll find out.
i still haven't spoken with my dad. time really has flown by. since that one night in welcome week. it's been a while. my heart has gone through a lot of changes. i see a different me in the mirror. it's sad to a certain extent.. i miss all the crazy nights with my friends, i miss not having one fucking care in the world to weigh me down. i miss being sure about everything. i really miss playing airplane with my bestest. but i guess times change and it's all part of growing up, so i should just accept the changes and make the best of them. sometimes i can do that. the past couple days it's been a little harder, but i can do it. =)
i hope everyone's been doing good.
nicole. i miss you.
lots of other people too, but i've just been thinking about you lately. =)
well we're about to take off from shane's dad's house and go back home or something. but yeah, see you guys later.
XOXO nannerz
miss me?
prolly not. but that's okay, i'll still update.
i'm happy. =)
chris and i aren't together anymore. so if you read my last one.. no it didn't fix anything for us. but it still worked out nicely for me i guess. maybe that makes me a horrible person. maybe that makes me a heartbreaking bitch. but regardless of how it appears, i really did not mean to hurt him. i hope it did what i wanted it to, i hope it made him more independent and happy. and i really hope him and i can be friends soon. i'd like that a lot.
shane and i have a certain closeness that i've never had with anyone. a complete understanding of eachother without even having to try. i love that. not that i didn't love chris. i did. i always will. but there's a difference between loving someone and being in love with them. i'm happy to have discovered that difference.
i miss my friends. a whole lot. what makes me even more sad tho, is that i gave out my number to a lot of them and they never called me. in the past two months i've been living at this house, i have called my friends several times to hang out, but none of them have called me. makes me kinda wonder. when they say everyone changes after you graduate, they're not fucking kidding. i don't know anyone anymore. sometimes i don't know who i am.. but self realization comes in time. so i'll just enjoy myself for now. =) ignorance is bliss? we'll find out.
i still haven't spoken with my dad. time really has flown by. since that one night in welcome week. it's been a while. my heart has gone through a lot of changes. i see a different me in the mirror. it's sad to a certain extent.. i miss all the crazy nights with my friends, i miss not having one fucking care in the world to weigh me down. i miss being sure about everything. i really miss playing airplane with my bestest. but i guess times change and it's all part of growing up, so i should just accept the changes and make the best of them. sometimes i can do that. the past couple days it's been a little harder, but i can do it. =)
i hope everyone's been doing good.
nicole. i miss you.
lots of other people too, but i've just been thinking about you lately. =)
well we're about to take off from shane's dad's house and go back home or something. but yeah, see you guys later.
XOXO nannerz